Raffles city to suntec! had a great time shopping with my kakak! bought DP stuffz and waiting for my pay day and i have like 3 tops i want to buy and the skirt i have been eyeing for...on the way back saw dwain tabbitha and faizal.. they look so teenagerish..hahah so young like tat... gosh why can't i bump into taufik batisah!!!! aaarghh!! aniwae i guess they are going to the BSB concert.... i really want to go but cash is quite tight last time...haiz....

Lalaalalalalllalalalla..... i thought i am weird but you are even weirder!!!

My room is finally spick and span!! I spent 4 and a half hour to clean my room.. Good job to me!! finally i can concentrate and do my lesson plans...Didn't go anywhere except in the morning to chong pang market... My adik is sick...she has stomach problem.. just like what i used to have aLWAYS..

Wanted to share my dream! i guess i think GOD has finally answered my prayers... it is very rare since i dream abt H.. yesterday he appear in my dream... we were walking at this pavement and then a lorry in front skidded and overturn..the metal parts of the lorry flew off and this big part wanted to hit me.. and guess wat!! H use his bare hand and shield me from those parts and end up injuring his hands...he actually saved my life in that dream...after tat i felt guilty because i realise i did not fit to be his gf because he is super nice!! Ya so tat's my dream.. i dunnoe what it means but i guess it's time for me to be nicer to H and will try to love him again because afterall he is my Knight in SHiny Armour in the dream lah of course...

So ya i guess i have to let go and totally forget about THE ONE! it is hard but i realize it is the correct path... Go with the person who loves you not the one you love.... Since i am still unsure wat is love... i guess i got nothin to lose... H and me will be together and slowly i think maybe after marriage i will then know what is true love...

Goodbye to you .. i will fade away from your life slowly... and wish you all the best with her... I gave up...

WOW! it went quite well.. Guess this week is quite good.. my CTs are so nice.. esp Ms Devi... I really admire her... To begin with she is pretty but at the same time she is super fierce with the class... The way she discipline her class is damn good..hopefully i can keep up to her standard... Next she is humble and she actually help me alot..seriously coz i am not mentally and knowledgably prepared for stellar..all the while in NIE i thought i won't be doing SBA!!coz i assume that SBA only in P1 and P2... And ya somemore she has so much work to do..like vetting.. debate thing and need to go for course thing if i'm not wrong.. wow! I hope when i am in teaching line i will have stamina like her to handle all this tasks and hav a good time management like her... like seriously man.. seeing her workload and also Mrs Rajoo scares me at time...wondering whther i can cope being a teacher in the school... Isn't it better if teacher are just teacher who teaches students and not do all this extra work thingy... But like wat ppl say.. if u dun try u will never know..

Last nite was rushing but perfect! :) Okay dear john movie is slow.. i was expecting to cry alot of time but ended up crying only at one part when he read the letter that he wrote for his dad to his dad.... very touching! but the girl beside me was actually sobbing! aiyoh!!! thought i was the worst at crying in the movie theatre.. hahhahaa... atleast my tears just flow and flow..not sniffing or something...Dear John is also sweet movie and quite old skool.. writing letters but somehow it is indeed a very sincere thing to do and more romantic i guess instead of sms or call or something.. and somemore u are like far apart and the only thing that bond u are the letters!!!!

Being in a love triangle is sucky and i think either the last person in the chain give up or the first person in the chain disappear!!!! hahahahaha make sense? to be in between u need to make a choice and it will be easy for you if u have only one choice rite... i mean it depends on the types of love triangle... C likes B and B likes A but A n0 reaction. or C likes B and B likes A and A likes someone else.. or worst still C likes B and B likes A and C..that one B is a stupid jerk!! (for males)
or also.. C likes B and B likes A and A likes B... this one C is an EXTRA!! ( it happens to me.. i guess most cases also like this.. haiz.. so that makes A the strongest in the chain? this is what i call crapping..... now me no mood to do lesson plan at all..haiz...

Everytime i look at you i think of him.... Gosh!! KILL ME someone!!!

tired! before my last lesson i had a terrible headache..my head felt so light... and the surrounding is spinning... i felt so cold... 1 moment i felt as if i was about to die or something or faint... but the helpful ppl of xishan like JU and Faridah.. they help me find panadol and the Mel was so kind too.. and of course the rest of NIE trainees... seok offer me a cup of herbal ginger and lemon tea.. drank only 1/4 of it.. lucky me to have wonderful ppl around....
Then went for HODs meeting which lasted 1 and a half hour.. i was feeling so drowsy and of course my brain switched off... then can't tahan i went home... i left a note for my CT whom i suppose to meet after tat..

Later got tuition... haiz... suddenly i feel so lazy going to tuition..dunnoe why... i feel so bad for being lazy... aniwae gtg eat nasi minyak my mom cooked!! will eat as a fmily again!! yippie cos my elder sis is coming back early and my adek is coming back soon too! sure kecoh if the 3 charlie angels are in the house! :)

Forgot to add!

WHY ON EARTH IS EVERYONE IN NIE??
the 2 person i hate most is in NIE (not my year) and going to enter NIE !! haiz.. thank god i going to leave the skool already by end of MAY!

My adek tell me..'eh why only u listen to this kind of song?'..i got no answer.. Actually it's true.. i'm the only one who will listen to 96.3 from 5 to 8 for hindi songs and 8 to like nite sometimes muttons! sometimes to 96.8! for tamil songs.. even though i have indian blood coz my mom is indian muslim and my dad is boyanese... WAT A MIX man! i am more to indian... i realise i'm the only one who listen to indian radio..my along she doesn't... my adik only 987 my mom and dad dengar warna.. ahahhaa.. okay so ya i guess influence lah...always go darsha place then hear indian music..nice~!! so tat is why sometimes i hate it when ppl say the word K to refer to the indians... terase lah... scolded hairil before and we got into hug fights that last for weeks...

okay enuff... now trying to do lesson planning.. loving xishan primary.. very near house... left school at 235.. reach home at 250..if drive... wonderful life..save petrol!!! and can frequently wash my car coz the shell is nearby :)

Reporting live from Xishan Primary. This week will be the observation week. Next will be the CA1. So probably will teach the following week. Right now I am sitting at the round table which 6 of us hav to share..
So far so good. My ct is a pretty and firm teacher. The other one os extremely kind. Like them both. Thank god that everything work out well. But the probLem now is tat i'm too free. I didn't bring my laptop and I got nothin to do.
Hmmm now what? Just waiting for 130 for the briefing and I can go :) will blog later! Tooodles.

motor bikers pls ride carefully

went SSC with my adek just now.. then wanted to go sunplaza to eat KFC.. then witness an accident... a motorbike.. a malay guy was lying in the middle of the road taking up 1 and half lane... it caused congestion of course... the guys' head was bleeding very badly... and then he was like unable to move so much... his hand keep on touching his chest where his heart is.. his breathing were so deep.. i nearly cried for him... the damn ambulance still haven reach yet.. i'm just afraid that he won't make it like one of my friend and also the news i read in berita harian about motor bike accidents.. every seconds count actually... it was really sad.. his gf i think, she was injured too..her face was bruised but other than that she was okay.. but she was crying... it is very sad.. then there is an indian man sitting down at the kerb with his leg stretched out and barely can move.. ouch!! accidents can happen anywhere.. I'm scared.
Oh and we actually wanted to wait till ambulance come but damn it takes more than 5 minutes... thankful the sembawang ppl are very nice and helpful... they were consoling the victims.. Then while we want to go back..this malay aunty carrying plastic bags was shouting and running towards the guy..."anak mak ! anak mak! anak mak!" i nearly teared.. so many ppl are affected...

I really worried abt my friends who ride.. losing one friend due to it is very difficult for me to handle... just ride safely ppl... oh just now the bike was a white colour one.. so i thought it was joshua's one.. but fortunately it was not him... that's why my mom always say jgn naik motor!! suruh matair bawak kereta atau naik bus..i guess i understand now...

And there was a super short chingay from wdland to yishun is it.. or sembawang.. quite nice.. got hdb ion.. some indonesioan stuff..hippo bus... ya lasted about 5 mins? ppl waited since 830..and they arrive at 1030 to 1035.. hahahha...

Recent update: I am so into GLEE!! plz ppl if got time go watch it...no regrets one...can't wait for april for ep 14..the season have not finish yet.. haiz..

mean

Went town with my sis.. we shop till the shop close!!! tiring but relaxing.. ispent around 200 plus plus... some are for work and some are for fun!! wahahhax..
my legs hurt!!
still got some stuiff haven buy yet... such as files and notebooks... red pens!...
maybe tml i will head down to bugis or something.. or should i just go causeway pt.. hmmmmph.. depends on my laziness..
now listening to tamil songs at OLI fm.. the songs are all so nice!! :)

now i noe how mean u are...am i tat bad??

it hurts

OUCH~!!!
it must hurt real badly.. i was shocked too! never been there but it seems very painful.... No mood after tat for me..

Aniwae went out with the grp..zaid and zarena can't make it.. we hang out at vivo and eat at fig & olive.. very relaxing after hectic weekSS... gonna miss them.. after 10 weeks of practicum then can get to see them.. haiz..

okay k.. gonna strive well for my practicum and hopefully can cross over... so i can get a degree... hopefully...


Goodbye to u! :(

Finally I can sleep peacefully. Left to print. Damn my ink finished. One of my rare times sleeping at 5 plus. Hav to wake up at 10. Can la I think. On sat I shall celebrate and go shopping! Weee! Later gonna go out with them to vivo! Last time together to hang out. Gonna sleep. later will blog again ;)

missing you guyz~!

In DCM 201 class.. gonna miss the lecturer Mr Wong!! he is so nice! gave us ferrero rocher..the photo and some papers thingy.. gonna miss this class...
The back ppl.. halim boon chun clarine luke and my lovely partner cindy...
then the pretty girls group...syafa shikin arafah and ashini and grace..
The other gerek group is amalina shrifah samihah and sureen!!
Of course daniel group..quite kesoch coz of lovely lavanya, poonam, gracia, ellis and celine
And then my slacker grp..raj rosless vishnu and dominic and me...
Been together for like soooooo long... i like my class!!
Okay presentation done! i like today's one.. very clear and fun! :) later going to perform for RT have to be thick skin! hahahahx.
Oh ya going to edit my grp video. Can't believe i actually enjoy doing it.. but it takes time.. so sad...and time is not by my side right now...haiz i think today will be sleeping at 4 am again :(

Haiz..this week for me i conclude is a sad hectic and zombified week... No vitamin C... haiz......
Maybe later i will blog again... depends on how stress i am.. hahhahaa

Goodbye for now :)

Wishing~!

Haiz.. i need shooting stars to grant me wishes...thought my last few days in NIE will be a great one.., but NOOOOO... first time in dcm 202 my eyes can hardly open... can't even solve problem sums... then got to do RT.. first time doing serious stuff in audacity... from dunnoe now become pro!! thanks to my team mate :) I need my vitamin C to keep me going...
Aniwae when i reached home and eating..my daD as usual will say all the lame stuff and trying to crack jokes to cheer me up coz i think i look like zombie... but u noe what.. sadly i lost my sense of laughter... it is funny but i can't laugh anymore... i just stare at my plate or just stare at him...wat the helll.... i want to laugh again!!! sometimes it happen to me if i stress or pissed... no matter how funny u are and i noe its funny but i can't laugh...irritating and if ppl noe me they will noe that i will laugh at even your dumbest joke coz it's funny to see ppl telling dumb jokes...

Now if i'm unhappy i will just have to stare my desktop pic!! my favourite guy is on it! Mark Salling!! girls do check him out!! for guys up to u :) I can say i am a fanatic fan of GLEE!!!

Hey and finally i get to see her~!! wat a coincidence... it's when u least expect it, it will come...
Okay she is sweet and pretty...pleasant looking too...probably very lady like soo unlike me... hhahahaha..

*QUIT PLAYING GAMES...* BSB rawkz!

DAMN ME!!!!
Foza wanted to see my marking scheme.. then i realize i can't open it!!!! its corrupted!! then tried at my sis lappy... damn... can't open.. format all run and like shit k!!
I have to redo!! REDO??!!!!!!! sucky man!! suck to the core!!!!!!!!
Thank god i didn't break down!! i just vented my anger a bit that's why i'm still angry now and tried to keep myself calm... i cancelled tuition for this thing... FCUK man!! wat the hell.. always buat hal.... serve me right in the first place..last minute work...gini la jadinyer... damn!!!!! tml will be in school to video the drama hopefully everything goes smoothly and then can go home continue do assignment and go for tuition~! haiz...jia you to option A (eng + Maths) ppl!! we can do it!! everything will pay off :)

Miss you!

THANKS ARH FARAA~!~!!!!!!!
Thank god you never mention the name!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but aniwae i dun think he read my blog coz i dun think he noes the website..but atleast he noes i exist :)... but still irritating sis!!!
Its not like i heck care abt him.. its complicated k faraa...u won't understand coz u still young :P

Aniwae i forgot what i want to blog abt... thanks to her!!!!!

oh ya last day of scv cable showing all channels.. sadly i cannot enjoy it coz busy doing assignments.. and the only way for me to relax is thru blogging and you tubing....facebook not so much now..i tried not to go coz of the bejeweled disease!...quite sad coz i didn't have time to spend time with my bff aka as DARSHA!! :) Missed hanging out with her :)

blah blah blah...

HEYA! FARAA OZ TYPING ILLEGALLY WHILE MY SISTER ISN'T LOOKING, HEHEHEHEHE.
ANIWAES, SHE'S CRAZY ABOUT THIS PARTICULAR GUY, DAMN ANNOYING...
EVENTHOUGH SHE IS ATTACHED, SHE LIKE HECK CARE ABOUT HER OWN BF! KESIANNYE ABANG HAIRIL... (eeiyerrr, so weird to call abang)
NOW, SHE IS BLABBERING ABOUT THE GUY TO ME NOW. so irritating.
OK, PANJANG WEEKEND IS COMING TO AN END. OMG! TMR DAH START SKOLA!! SORRY KAKAK, BUT THIS IS FUN! HEHEHEHHEHE. BYEZ.
-ADIOS AMIGOZ-
PEACE OUT.

Well done to team Za and Fa!..we manage to finish up the RT propz! no choice but we have to draw it and my first time drawing and displaying my work! haiz...
Aniwae met taufik!! the suria actor.. not taufik batisah :( then on the way to tuition..met amir.. vinish and his cousin... vinish is still ever so cute~! hhahhaha.. so ya got accompany all the way to wdlands :)
then go tuition.... then went long john.. and the counter girl was very funny and friendly.. as i was about to hand her the money.. i saw the name tag.. and it say FAZEELA! wahahhahah! my twin!! no wonder we can clique.. u noe one of the weirdest thing i want to do is to like make as much friends that have the same name as me!! hhahaha i got one friend.. fadillah.. abit same the pronunciation... but i want someone with like exact spelling and all.. and i always thought ppl with same name and spelling as me will turn out to be like me exactly... hhahahah.. weird rite..i have yet to find someone called Fazilah... with single l. i check iit out i realize in Malaysia there is one Dr Fazilah.. and its a HE!! haiya!...

Oh ya today is monday! i think it will be a good week again coz i saw Taufik.. last week was Mayuni.. hahhahax.. missed Mayuni...He stay beside my block and will see him coz he will leave in the morning to go work and me go skool.. kadang kadang terserempak kat carpark... i always wanted to say hi! but when see him i can't say a word.. all i did was to like stare and i think smile stupidly.. this is what happen always when i see MY superstar..hahahaha... just like when i go for autugraph for taufik batisah.. the first and last time i saw him at sun plaza..can't even talk properly.... then i saw the hindi actors.. they came to singapore for the iifa awards and saw most of the stars...i'm okay with those ppl.. but when i saw dino moreo...OMG!! he saw me and smile.. and stupid me just smile back.. instead of like say hi or soemthing... nonsense me.. and coz of him i dun really see abishek and jaya..they were infront of dino!! my gosh!!! i dunnoe what i will do if i see MY SALMAN KHAN,... i think i will just stone there!! by the way i love SALMAN KHAN!!! i dun care what he did and all but he is just too cute!! his body is good and just wow!! hahhaax..i just wish i could see him real life before its too late :)

Me and my SUPERSTARS!!! for singapore the only person i admire is taufik batisah and Mayuni omar... dun ask me why mayuni.. he is just so cute and talented!!just like taufik!! hahahax.. who else arh..hmmph..oh Hyrul anwar is it?.. i dun really noe his name,.. but he is cute and have good voice...ya i guess tat's all..and of course my channel 5 fav is GURMIT SINGH!!!!

Enuff enuff! let see getting back to assignment and tml slog at home and go tuition in the afternoon..how sianz my life is.... The only thing that make me work so hard now is the DEADLINE!! And practicum coming... gonna do my best and TEACH!!! probably i am not finding it tooooo scary because i like to teach... its true..if u like something u won't find it difficult.. to me i like to teach but preparation of course very tough.. but i think it's worth it..tiring i agree but when u r in class and u see 30 pairs of eyes on you...u realise that u will actually change some of their lives for the better or for the worst... i mean being a teacher quite rewarding but of course if your students are like setan setan... then it's like a challenge la.. hahahahx..

okay geeting back to where i stop...adios~!

weeee!~

Going to west coast park!! meeting zarena to do the props.. first time going going west coast.. today i dun think i can complete any assignment...haiz... got tuition after tat.... * double sigh!
I wonder how west coast like... will update more later :)

Wat a day!

What a day to spend a valentine day... doing assignment at home! haiz...alot to do!!!
serve me right!!
I started on 3 assignment: -EL LP (30%)
-Test Construction (20%)
- Rubrics (i just need to collate (50%)
-Maths videoing ( 0%)
-Readers theatre (team work - wed will be done hopefully)

So i guess with the help of redbull and my discipline without facebooking or bejeweled-ling i can complete forst three today..hopefully lah eh...

okay all the best to me :(

Sad day!

It has been so long since i cried. it was horrible. my eyes were so bengkak when i left the theatre.
Tat is my weakness. i will always cry when watch sad hindi movie.. coz maybe i too absorb in the story....
Of course the hindi movie is My Name is Khan. I am not a terrorist. That is his dialogue.
Okay basically he is autistic. I had come across one autistic boy but not so bad like him but ya reminded me of that boy. The way he behave and everything. The movie is touching and of course there are some humour injected to it but not so much though.. so practically i cry..then dried up and cry again... it's very touching story... ppl just watch it okay! i spot a couple of chinese fella watching it too.. it was 12 noon movie at yishun gv...and then went to eat coz i haven eaten my lunch but my sisters and mom had. so i wanted to eat long john.. freaking pack..mac also... haiz... it suppose to be cny u noe... and it was like 3 plus... shouldn't they be at home or prepare for the reunion?? tat one i stil dun understand till now...

Aniwae finally gotten a place at mac..Okay k back to the movie... It is damn nice!!
I dunnoe whther i post it before but last sem i was thinking that i may not want to be a primary school teacher all my life...after my dip.. i serve my bond... then i will take my degree... then serve another bond.. then i will quit... i really want to teach in special needs school... like last year went wit my sister and friend to like do their hair, i saw a down syndrome boy...i mean he is so cute and can say smart.. it is very satisfying to see that they achieve something....thought of just joing now but i have no experience in like fully take care of them... so i thought i will serve the pri school first then learn more so that i will manage those special needs ppl...
I noe it is not easy... i mean in future i have to set up my own family myself.. and then if i teach in special needs school, my responsibility will increase..,. i'm afraid whoever my husband is would not want me to do it... even my mom dun encourage me qcoz the responsibility is huge and it will be quite sad for me.. but i have make up my mind.... this is wat i want to do! i dun care whther ppl like it or not... b4 marrying whoever i will ask him whther approve if not i won't marry and help those children :) I guess my dream of becoming a principal afterall won't come true :) hahhahax.. sometimes u noe u dream of something and then something come in your way....u have to choose and decide which is the best for you... then you have to alter your path... tat's life... thankfully for me.. i think because of my boyish character i move on quite fast compared to others... i will be sad if someone hurts me or something but i think that it is useless to be sad.. so just move on and be happy...but this can be bad because other ppl will think u dun care type of person... haiz...difficult u noe living in this world...

Okay gonna clean up my messy table and start on my assignments.... full speed...need redbull!!!

*i'm sorry if somethings you wish to say but you can't because of me. if can u just say it i won't mind coz i'm no longer part of your life...

STop it eh!

Can u stop appearing and then disappear and then appear again! stop it eh!! dun make me confuse can... coz u r the one that is confuse!!

Today was a hot day! Went IMM wit zar and suk ching! wow daiso is cool! thanks to them i think i going to be addicted to daiso soon!! so many cool stuffz!! sembawang shopping centre one abit hopeless!! hahaha! okay k i shall stop exclaming..ppl dah tegur about me having so many exclamations... had fun! had a real fun!!

Today was AWESOME!!! seriously i finally get to talk to this cute hot indian guy in NIE! (to me la i think.. he is the macho macho type) his body is well-built but not too much lah just nice... like those american football type.. and ya he is cool! hahhaa actually he is a friend of a friend...didn't have any chance before to have a real convo with him and finally today we spot him in the canteen and ya we talked! tat made my day coz u noe we are leaving NIE like very soon..next friday is the last lesson before practicum and we will be back in school for like onlee 2 weeks in may... so ya have to leave NIE with no regrets!! hahahahax.

Oh ya thinking about it i will miss alot of ppl!... friends..esp raniah! she is like one of my first friend in NIE then somemore she live in pasir ris.. jauh kan.. then the rest also.... oh ya the malay stall makcik!!.. she very funny and i help her a couple of time to change the fork tray and buy her water... i mean she is the best malay stall aunty... and she always call sayang to everyone even though there is this i think lectu8rer... non-malay also she call sayang.. hahahaha

Oh ya and today i didn't drive... so tat makes the 2nd time this year i go to school by public transport...and this time i walk confidently to the bus interchange and thank god saw hafiz.. hhhaahha.. and the most embarassing thing i dunnoe where to alight so i just alighted at block 7 coz i dunnoe which way is faster... block 2 or block 7.. oh and on the way back my ez link buat hal.. have to retain my card and i got a new one purple colour!! barney colour? yuuckkx!!

okay anyway the song that is ever so meaningful for today is every breathe u take by the police!!

Every breath you take and every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take, I'll be watching you
Every single day and every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay, I'll be watching you
Oh can't you see you belong to me?
How my poor heart aches with every step you take
Every move you make and every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake, I'll be watching you
Since you've gone I've been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face I look around but it's you I can't replace I feel so cold and I long for your embrace I keep crying baby, baby please
Oh can't you see you belong to me? How my poor heart aches with every step you take......

finally

finally...
case closed.

strange!

Today was okay i guess.. got a date! weee~! ate at madjack :) such a long time since i went on a date ... wahahhahax... but unfortunately it lasted quite soon... coz i got to go home and watch the just for laugh asia! coz last week i missed it.. aniwae did quite a lot of stuff today.. thank god i think i am moving forward in my assignments...

Something strange... are u a malay or chinese? caught u at northpoint at the hong kong restaurant thingy.... can't accuse coz i didn't see him eat except drinking....

blah blah blah blah blah~~!!

i love muse!!!

it's all about me!

A great week??... hmmmph can say okay lah more of surprising and rushing week...
Hectic day i had... let see... hmmm went to skool in the morning lesson till 130.. the ate at the canteen... okay then spotted i think the blogger fadzil... hmmm but i not sure coz i can't really rememner the face since the last time i wanted to add him on facebook.. then saw familiar ntu faces.. wanted to tegur tapi like segan coz alot of guys then i heck it lah.. coz there are thhousands of things i got to do... Actually wanted to follow syafa go lib to print stuff but i am so hungry!! so got to eat lah rite... then rush to lib for 5 mins meet up with lovely raniah... then rush to class which i was 5 mins late.. haiz i think i walk too slow... then after class 430 sharp go lib to print stuff and etc... as to go out of school latest by 5 plus to avoid congestion!! okay so met navon and vishnu and my car has space so i dropped them off too at woodlands! as usual in my car is lively! thanks to syafa and ellis and the two guys!

so ya i have a feeling tml will be another hectic day i got 3 hours break... from like 1130 to 230...but i doing rubrics so ya can't meet hafiz and friends.. haiz... nvm will thank them one fine day for being my tueday buddies!!

Okay enuff.. i'm sleepy.... and today didn't doany assignment...damn i need someone to like really slap me hard or push me to do assignment..been slackin!! shit man!!! how???!!!! how??!!! help me anyone? hahhahax.. talking to myself again...

oh ya actually this blog is just me talking to myself space :) (weird me)

a good week

Hopefully it wil be a great week ahead!!! coz i started off my early morning monday with something good!! thanks to you!

I can foresee that the week will be hectic.. i need to have the stamina to pass thru this week but i still have the feeling that it will be a great week.. something great will happen...i dunnoe what it is though....

my weekends were gone just like tat... thanks to GLEE!! i watch the whole of season 1 and my sat gone just like tat... then sunday came did the maths video thing (the only useful thing i did on weekend)... then went home family bonding with grandma and aunt and dad and my kakak.. at nite thought i would like to start something useful but guess wat is on tv!! channel 5 -POC 3!! love jack sparrow! then at star movies got slumdog.. missed by 30 mins.. then continue watching pirates till 1130 then help my sis with project of course my bejeweled trying to beat my score which is like so hard!!!! damn!!!

oh ya sat went to visit my dad's friend at NUH.. he has lung infection due to smoking... he was in ICU for nearly a week.. his wife gave him advice not to smoke or reduce smoking but stubborn! duh!! smokers are very stubborn!!! just llike my dad... so my adik scolded my dad for smoking and all he did was to smile and ignore.. so my mom expect me to say something to my dad...i noe watever i say will be useless... we all have tried... so the only thing i asked my dad was whtehr he hav health insurance? and he luffed.. i think it is very important for us to have health insurance coz u miight not know when u are going to get ill... u can't just rely on medisave thingy..it is not enuff to cover your hospital bill if u are admitted.. just have the insurance..dun burden your family or friends if u get ill....

so ya moral of the story... try to advise your friends or relatives who smoke to cut down coz it willl just begin with an ordinary cough but u might not know that your lungs are actually infected then u will be like unconscious and u will be admitted to icu... but if they still refuse to listen ask them to get insurance coz dun burden your loved ones just because u are stubborn and refuse to quit smoking... majority of smokers are guys and they are like the breadwinners so ya plz dun be selfish.. actully this message is dedicated to ollder ppl coz they have been smoking for like 20 over years just like my dad..and of course inside the body very terok already...for youngsters and in their twenties...up to them lah.. no use talking to them... just hope they will realise that their habit of smoking will eventually hurt their loved ones one fine day... but almost all of them will realise it once they are suffering from it and then they regret and everyone noes that IT IS TOO LATE!... tat's life... u have to experience it to understand it..... why not just play safe...

gtg and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..morning class....

ALONE!

Let's see
Assignment left to do:
DCM 201 - Test construction
DCM 202 - Video Taping & the written assignment
DCE 201 - Rubrics
Lesson Plan
Dce 202- RT!

Aniwae i feel very relieved after submitting the dce 202 assignment. It was like confusing and messed up and alot of ppl are doing it differently... haiz.. it has always been like tat..

Aniwae had a terrible and mad rush week. No time to like do wat i enjoy such as watching tv youtube blog hopping.. the onlee thing i manage to do was to play bejeweled! So now i am going to start slowly on my assignments. Practicum coming soon! nervous!!

Oh ya i watched ugly betty season 4 just now! episode 13... i really salute the friendship of betty and daniel in that movie... love them!!! oh ya it is quite upsetting coz matt is no longer in the series and is damn sad to see Betty single all over again... matt and betty is like PERFECT!!

I just discover something abt myself today after having a quarrel with hairil. I realized that i am a person who cannot talk on the phone to talk cock with everyday! Let see... ppl call me for something and i call them for something... the only person i talk to on the phone to like kill time or something is none other than my bestie darsha.. that is why he was always pissed off with me when i told him dun call me often! What can i do when to me i just dun like to talk on the phone. I always prefer to hang out and like talk face to face or sms or msn at timez..
I guess i am weird in some ways... i like to be alone sometimes.. to go tuition i rather take the bus than drive my car.. i just need time for myself... i will walk 10 minutes to the bus stop at my tutee place.. to me my tuition nite is the nite whereby i can like spent sometime alone with me and myself :) I think this is one way to keep me sane!! i am hardly sane if ppl are around me!! Okay in conclusion i am weird.
Oh and it has been such a long time since i go shopping alone! hmmmph...

1 think i want to do by the end of this year is to eat at pizza hut alone and even catch a movie alone! ( but what if i laugh too loudly ..maybe i will catch a sad movie..but then i cry easily... damn!!.. so how?? i think i will scrap the idea.)

oh and damn this com no dvd player and i dwnload also no use cannot play.. i am idiot at all this stu7ff!! help anyone?? help me!!! hahahaha. i want to watch glee but it is dvd.. sux man...

Okay i think i talk too much!!! oh today at NIE RAIN around 4 plus!! woohoo! my car has finally gotten a bath!!

adios and me now gonna y0u tubing!!!

Tml..i mean later is my DCM 202 Test!!
I am in a dead shit! assignments all pending..

just now had fun.. had lunch with darsha... she is very prettty!!
then met mahfoza to study..hhahhaha.. gerek!!! i manage to do my work but not all of course coz i need my old notes and everythin... haiya!! so unprepaared

thenw ent wdland pasar malam... the food there so tempting.. expecially the ayam.. i bought one.. then bought the japanese tako!! yummy!! finally got to eat it!!

had fun.. how i wish everyday day can have so much fun..meet up friends and all..

Oh ya thankfully my nenek able to eat again.. she had gastric.. and thankfully the medication work...thank you dr Jasmine!! i love you! hahahahax

me too busy already!! damn.. no time to even play bejeweled today.. sobz sobz!!

tmr practicum briefing at ntu.. and my dear friend syahman i think something is disturbing him..i dunnoe what...he is unwell also.. seriously i never see him like tat before for so long...wish i could do something to brighten his day... to me good people dun deserve to be sad or worried coz they just dun deserve it..unlike me of course..i expect troubles to come due to my blurness.. my annoying laughter.. my bad habits and etc... haiz...

okay lah gtg sleep.. tml 830 and need to overcome the traffic tml!! haiz............................................


ADIOS!

waiting for my dce mates to go online and discuss stuffz..
while waiting i shall blog to avoid myself from playing bejeweled..

A bit random but i want to say: WTF!! dun confuse others just because u r confuse!!

Okay i let it out.

As i was walking home from tuition.. i notice the moon is so bright.. not a full moon though... then the bright star thing which doesn't blink... and then i spotted..one..two.. three four five and.. so on STARS!!! so bveautiful.. i feel like lying at the empty field opp my place and lie down and just see the stars... i can stare at it for hours.. it put a smile on my face to see so many stars.. then i smiled at this lady.. quite young... probably mid 30s.. she was walking pass me and wondering whether i crazy to walk and look at the sky... so then i smile at her.. she smile back!!! yeah!!!

smile is contagious unless that person really the mood cannot make it..

okay so tml me will be doing my assignments at wdland lib... away from my bed..tv.. mom!! sis!! and fridge!!! coz tml my lessons all cancelled! yahoo!!
so ya..have to make full use of it.. :)

back to work!! :)

Love myself! hahahahhx.. if u dun love yourself.. how can u love others rite??

My grandparents

Guess wat!! unproductive day! bejeweled damn addictive. didn't do anything!!!!!!!
But had fun catching up with friends on msn.. its quite rare i talk to like quite a number of ppl in msn... usually the same main friends...
ANiwae my nenek is sick.. i just found out she has been vomiting today also...i am really scared...
she is 90 already and i'm afraid to lose her... losing my grandpa is not easy for me..... i regret not calling the ambulance for him and i can see how painful for him to walk even a single step to take taxi.. his eyes are full of pain taking the stairs down.. he is struggling every minute in the icu... he wants to drink coke on his last days but the stupid nurse won''t let him!!! he is so kind to ask me to go to prom when he is sufferin... but i made the right choice by staying with him... the time i spent with him while waiting for his turn to check up is the most memorable moment for me..
till now i feel like he is with me... though my skool is near to his kubur i was not allowed to visit him alone...i guess she is afraid.. but i will always wait for the timewhen my mom ajak ...i love him the most in the family but he left me...Now my nenek is sick... i'm afraid to lose her too... sometime i wish i will be the one who will go first coz i really can't bear to lose my loved ones...
tml i will ask my mom to bring her to Dr Jasmine. I dun care.. she muz be treated fast!
I will pray for you nenek! Please be well!! i noe its tough coz your body system is not the same anymore due to aging but i still want u to back like normal when tok was around...

tat is why i think in relationship a break up is nothing compared to losing your loved ones due to death... for a break up u noe she or he is there still but when someone dies... its a different thing..
u got to treasure your loved ones...