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Just finished my workout at orq wit shida :) did bodycombat.. It really brings out the anger in me.. Coz i dun understand wat i did to him to hate me so much that even he disregard me as a friend.. Haiya... I dun bother now.. Hopefully the group is happy after wat they have done coz finally they got rid of me... And they are able to influence him tat i am the bad one after they make all the assumptions and analyzing stuff.. What have i got to lose??? Nothin actually.. In fact i benefit from all this.. But some advise me to u noe bertegur coz he is a muslim and professional wise also... And obviously ppl will blame him more coz he cannot make his stand and still bothered by wt others say or think and he will be influenced by them... I not sure actually wat happen the other side but all i noe he should atleast trust me since we are open to each other and all... So ya... Haiya... Wasted man.. I reaally regard him as my really closest friend ever... just like i am willing to do anything for darsha.. I am willing to do anything for him... So now to avoid being childish like someone say.. I will smile luff and talk to the grp and him but it will be just an act lorh... Just like wat u guys are doing... Hypocrites! And pls lah to tat person no need to be concern abt me.. If u r u will directy ask me.. Stop pretending lah.. Suddenly u so happy to see me meh and since when u say bye when u gg off... Stop faking lah.. And ya thanks to all of u.. U have made me into a bitch.. Thank god u r not useful to me in my career... But still i wish him all the best and if he is much happier now then i guess he has make the right decision for himself... If he is suffering i guess he has to rethink again... Tata all i can say... I still regard hin as my friend coz he doesnt reallly hurt me... And i will try my best to make him happier and pray for him tat he will find the correct path..

finals

Waiting for your updates on your blog.. I hate the past few days... It was a crazy week that my feelings are numbed... I lost my dearest friend.. My uncle met wit an accident.. My nenek have to put on a brave front.. Thank god she is strong... My kids are having quarter finals... But yesterday i finally can breathe and think properly.. my feelins were all over the place.. On friday.. Both the teams made it to the semi finals! my uncle gain consciousness but memories affected.. The onlee thing i lose is my friend..but i needed his support then he was not there.. Aniwae ya besides spendig my nite in the hospital.. I went out watching movies and today went out on a blind date!! He is gentleman but too mature for me i guess.. He is nice but i guess he is not really my type.. But mostly i will take a few mths to develop feelings lah.. We shall see how it goes... Seriously i hav to stop gg out with random ppl...haagaha! Sleepy me gtg! Goodnitez

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Happy semcm!!! Hahahaha! Happy pun tak guna coz i am finding for a reason y i am happie :) Oh wait its friday!! And i taking the girls out!! And me meeting my bestie... and my nenek is fine... Onlee my uncle... Hmmm...

wish u were here :(

Why now things happen? When i needed my friend the most during this time he is not there.. Why do all bad things happen at once...haiz... Please let my nenek be strong...gosh! I can't take it if anything happen to her...

a friend

Hi ppl.. I just lost my very closest and good friend... It is all my fault... Guess i did not understand his feelings fully.. Onlee one mistake and i am being punished this way... I guess i deserve it lah also... But initially it hurts lah.. The person i rely trust and look up to is no longer there.. I am on my own now... Dunno whther he is reading this.. But he is a wonderful friend to have and he is the one tat understands me inside out but i guess i didn't understand him tat well and i have hurt him so much.. That it turns into a hatred.. So ppl out there.. Treasure your friendships... Do watever it takes to protect it... The rest is up to destiny.. I tried to protect but it failed.. No regrets coz i tried... I will just say it is another part of my journey.. I really miss him and my life will change for sure and now i will just see wat 2012 brings! Dun ever assume!!! assumptions made plus prior knowledge plus opinions will kill any relationships... Please find out the facts first... I dun want anybody to be in my situation...

trashing corner

If we talk cock and luff.. Tat doesn't mean we are friends hor.. Relak sikit.. Dun pretend u r concern bitch... U onlee care abt yourself.. U think u noe how to read ppl.. But u can't read me easily... Coz if u can.. U will know tat i dun want to be anywhere near u... I dun want to have anything to do wit u.. Gosh wish i dunnoe u at all.. Guess wat! U r my 2nd hatred person in my life.. Congrats! I really cannot take this thing anymore man.. Hopefully she will be the last person i hate... actuallie i pity her but after knowing her soo fucking well over the years... She is one of a kind... No one gets on my nerves... I just can't wait for the moment when we ever meet up again and i will like punch or slap her fucking face... If u r a bitch.. I will be a bitch to u too.. Thanks for destroyin some parts of my life...

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Shit i was wrriting half way and i canceled this page witout saving... Wat i want to say is tat there are ppl out there whose job is to irritate ppl to te core... And now i am digging my own grave... I think from now i will become a bitch already.. I am tired of acting and putting up with ppl behaviour.. My patience level has its limit... u noe wat.. Those who read this... If u see me not acknowledging ppl and smiling at them or when i disappear from that particular place.. It means i dun like tat person... I dun want to be friendly anymore... I am tired... Haiya... Actually tats wat happen just now... I dun bother abt my colleagues except for my friends lah.. Raz the grp... Jc.. Addy.. Shida.. and the BTs.. Hmmm lets try man.. I noe i will be hated but i think it is for my inner peace... Now i made the wrong decision by gg out with them for dinner.. Coz again i am not comfortable with them... I will just remain quiet lor..

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Haiz... I just tweeted that my planned has been disrupted... I dunnoe why i feel irritated... I guess it happened many times... So ya... Haiz..

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After soo long... U can't stop me... Hhaaha! Evil luffter!!! Okay enough is enough. Me now at millenia walk gym... Hot and non straight guys are here!!!! hahaha okay lah can wash eyes onlee.. Shan't ask for more :)