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Just finished my workout at orq wit shida :) did bodycombat.. It really brings out the anger in me.. Coz i dun understand wat i did to him to hate me so much that even he disregard me as a friend.. Haiya... I dun bother now.. Hopefully the group is happy after wat they have done coz finally they got rid of me... And they are able to influence him tat i am the bad one after they make all the assumptions and analyzing stuff.. What have i got to lose??? Nothin actually.. In fact i benefit from all this.. But some advise me to u noe bertegur coz he is a muslim and professional wise also... And obviously ppl will blame him more coz he cannot make his stand and still bothered by wt others say or think and he will be influenced by them... I not sure actually wat happen the other side but all i noe he should atleast trust me since we are open to each other and all... So ya... Haiya... Wasted man.. I reaally regard him as my really closest friend ever... just like i am willing to do anything for darsha.. I am willing to do anything for him... So now to avoid being childish like someone say.. I will smile luff and talk to the grp and him but it will be just an act lorh... Just like wat u guys are doing... Hypocrites! And pls lah to tat person no need to be concern abt me.. If u r u will directy ask me.. Stop pretending lah.. Suddenly u so happy to see me meh and since when u say bye when u gg off... Stop faking lah.. And ya thanks to all of u.. U have made me into a bitch.. Thank god u r not useful to me in my career... But still i wish him all the best and if he is much happier now then i guess he has make the right decision for himself... If he is suffering i guess he has to rethink again... Tata all i can say... I still regard hin as my friend coz he doesnt reallly hurt me... And i will try my best to make him happier and pray for him tat he will find the correct path..