:)

Yea!! xishanitez won!!! so proud of them!!! though at times they can get on my nervez but they did a good job!!! :) so happie!! Junior teams starting to train... gonna work hard and push the students in both academic and sports... we can do it!! :)

When reached skool...almost every one has left... :( tat's how it is... my mondays kinda of sad... can't really "lepak" with my colleagues...

tml will be a long day!!!!!!!!!! aaargghhhh.... but after skool.. thank god there is no marking.... tml if possible i want to go back early and meet with bestie.. hopefully....haven plan yet....

aniwae i am soo looking forward to March hols... going batam... meeting up my old friends and etc!! :)

oh ya today i am the last teacher to go back... guess wat time.. 645!! early sia...i was kind of afraid so i left the skool... hahhahaha..

Hmmm wat shall i do tonite!! like any other nite... sleep!!! maybe youtubing!!

PS: Wat more can i ask for rite??? i am happy to be me!! (Mrs Rama talk for my class just now.)

What to say..
Yesterday was kinda of hectic.. went to school..then wedding...then nenek's place.. then dinner then nenek's place... tiring!!
today i dun want to do anything!!! i just want to stay at home and ROT~!! wahahhaha actually more time to myself :)

Watching pyar mein kabhi kabhi... a movie about college ppl and a group of friends....kinda interesting

when the first time that we met... hand in hand we walked...
this heart of mine went crazy...that's when it knew what love is about....(The song in that movie!)

is it a sign or a coincidence...
had been dreaming about him.. then i saw his proton car that he sold off... the things that he gave me.. and my sis mention about him...i feel kesian at him... i really want to noe how he is...coz he did mentioned some stuf......

F@^%!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!

FREAK~!!!!!!

Pissed off~!

Not going to talk to anyone~!!!!

It has been such a long time since i took 859 home... i was deep in thought throughout the ride home...

What goes around come arounds...i believe in that...
My turn has come... This life is a cruel game... just when i thought everything is smooth sailing and happie... sorrow and sadness just appeared...
Just now was hectic but had a great dinner with fabulous colleagues...but the THOUGHT came back...

Why is it at times i feel like i dun deserve happiness.... ppl say i laugh alot and laugh easily but that doesn't indicate i am happy... it just mean that i am entertained and amused by funny stuff... at home my mom plays a major role in affecting our life!! She still treats me like a teenager and i am 24!!!! and at work alot of stuff but thanks to my colleagues!
finding distractions to remove that feeling of mine!! i hate it when i can't control how i feel... can't give it up.... see lah!! gatal fazilah... got someone love u.. i dun want and break it off... and when i really like that someone.... he don't reciprocate and better off with someone... haiz.. wat a cruel joke!

Ya aniwae update about my crush.. added him on facebook.. THANKS to my friends for influencing me... aiyoh wonder why i do that sia... pai seh now.. but what the hell.... imagine GIRLS making first movE????? itu nama nyer GILER!! but wat to do i can be thick skinn at times coz i am used to rejection?? hahahhahax!!! advice to girls out there :- dun do anything stupid unless u are sure about the guy's feeling towards you. back to him.. my adik say not bad!! and hal also say cute... hahha... and ya to admit.. he is one of my distraction but still can't get over THAT FEELING of mine....see la... hopefully it will be gone soon before it is too late....oopz... i wonder whether i put my blog add in my facebook... die if my crush read this!! ahhahahax... please hope that he won't read this...hopefully he won't check out my profile page!! SO SMART arh FAZI!!
aniwae....**IF u happen to read this... just pretend u never read k!! i will assume u never read also...**

PS:- Never judge a book by its cover ppl!! :)

My dil goes MMMMmmmm...

hehhehee...
really man when i talked and smiled at him..my heart beats faster and faster... hahhaha childish me!! it is just another crush~!! won't be seeing him after monday :(

But he really made my day... okay let me describe him... his body is buffed but the legs quite thin... short hair... chubby :) and quite dark... and he is a malay!! he is cute lah not hensem.. if onlee his body is much bigger :P

Gosh it has been so long since i got a crush!!!! surprisingly found his fb... but not going to add coz i dun want to noe more about him.. i will just let him be my crush and tat's it :)

lalallalalallalala~!

Current mood: 101% happy... 0% tired!! 100% not focus!! wahahhahhahx!

oh ya forgot to write about yesterday!! halawah..mrs fahmy ..mdm saedah.. reduan and I went to downtown east to eat seoul garden! :) funnny as helll!!! duh going out with them can really pecah pecah perut....fahmy and reduan made us luff non-stop!!!!! the funny thing is that fahmy never give up in match making me with reduan lah.. hafiz lah... and that reduan keep match making with zaki lah.. aiyoh!!!! hahahhahaha but funny lah... haiz she would want to match make me with all the single guys out there.... but haiya.. i dunnoe lah.. and me i am trying to match make my kakak first!! but luckily she actually went out with a guy for a date... hopefully it works out....

Today and tml will be a super long day for me~!!!.. nothing to look forward to except on thurs for the kumar show.... i am sooo looking forward to weekend coz by then all my markings will be cleared ..thus can enjoy the weeken to the max!! surprisingly my weekend is booked... wahahhahax!! thought my weekend will be boring but no!! hahhaa.. ya can't wait for sat (wedding to attend and sleepover at nenek's place! ) and sun (meeting bestie and might go prawning with katt and the rest)... and the free time will be used up to sleep!!

This week is terriblee for me.. rushing rushing rushing.... with floorball matches going on and yaa-da ..yaa-da..yaa-da....

current mood: 90% sleepy.... 70% tired.... 10% happy (nothing to be happy about yet... oh i realise that i have not been luffing heartily eversince yesterday afternoon till now.... wow!! shall go home later and watch comedy show! :) )

So many things to take note of... after thinkin about it and wishing upon the brightest star in the sky, I finally have made my decision...just now at the DAM! hehex.

Remember i was blogging about the person my friends recommend? I have made up my mind to leave the picture... He is very nice like i mention but i dun deserve him and i feel that he might be much happier with tat someone else...it reminds me of KKHH..

Phew... one problem down... so now left with my work load.. for family side..not so bad now... will try to be a better daughter (mcm real onlee).... so ya bean!!

Exhaustion and sleepy.
But Gabriel's wedding is fun! it was my first time attending a chinese wedding...
I enjoyed it...

alot of thing is happening and had happened!
Next week is Test 1 and i dun think they are prepared coz i have not prepared them! :{ Stress in school :(


Advice for me:
-Don't repeat the same mistake...
-To treasure your love ones (especially family... bestie.. and friends) They noe me best!

Went to lepak at yishun dam again on sat nite... clearing my thoughts and listing what i need in life and what i want in life.... i realise that i am not at the right path...got to make alot of changes to be back on the track.... and i realise one thing... actually my friends doesn't really noe me that well yet..onlee darsha... what i mean is that if she read my action and even when i am silence she will understand what is going on.. whereas most of my friends will onlee noe what happen if i tell them directly.. coz my actions is not as direct..... ya it takes time to noe people... aniwae i dunnoe what i am blabbering about....

Now waitin for mom to pick me up... too tired to walk... gonna sleep and maybe later at nite will go out probably northpoint or sun plaza to take photo!! :) Can't wait to enter uni sim!! will be a whole new journey for me.. hopefully a pleasant one :) since reduan also applying.. atleast got a friend....

Current mood: 99% tired & exhaustion...80% happy :)

Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi (correct spelling??)
Finally i understood that show...
Very sweet of the girl to choose her geeky hubby rather than someone she enjoys with... true love!!! this movie is abt seeing god in the person u love.. something like true love.....

and from om shanthi om i learnt that it is not the end if it is not happy.. coz all endings are happy endings...

i noe tat is fantasy but i try to believe in it coz i still dunnoe what is love... i thought me and my ex was kinda true love but in the end there is no love.... still finding for answer coz i am still confused... but i noe love cannot be taught... it will just happen i guess... i am still waiting for my love story to take place in my life....see wat bollywood do to us!! i mean ME!!!

hAPPY mE!

freaking irritated just now!! imagine me handling 28 floorballers all alone.. they are rude and noisy and just freaking loud... headache!! and need to revised my test 1 eng papper... can die.... i forgot to order food for tml ttt.... how screwed can i get today.... i haven eaten since morning till like 6 plus when i ask jc to accompany me for dinner... today was a bad day for me....when i reached home my head was hurting... i just felgt like screaming... i took the car.. brought my adik along... we went to lepat at starbucks at ssc and tehn went to yishun dam till like eleven... was so relaxing... saw the full moon and stars!!!! there were alot!! blasting music and emo-ing... quite fun and i finally distressed!!
So tml for ttt.. i will order mac for us!! i will just placed 13 orders...

aniwae saw the guy at the floorball match... NAH~!... good looking but too thin for me... and he look so serious.... NAH~!!!

okay i am tired. Good nite!! :)

Drained.
Stomach giving problems again...
Can't eat.... been going toilet since 3am till like 10 am

Sianz... hate to be on mc.... whole day wasted at home.. doing nothin but rest and sleep :(

Yesterdae went to eat buffet at hei sushi...maybe tat's why my stomach like tat..
and the day before ate buffet at straitz..ahhaha..yaa i deserve it..

aniwae i am happy :) seeing the tamp nth man tml will not matter animore i guess :P

Sleepy!! yesterday had a "date" with JC... fun and ate alot!! we went to straits kitchen at hyatt... so much food...can't even eat finish :( then went home and COLLAPSED!! hehehhee.. oh ya initially i was quite down in the morning.. then there are too many sweet people around in school so i became happy... Mrs fahmy gave chocolates... swc gave kit kats...addy cooked the potato thingy..yummy! and gave the photo with message.. and katt gave the reservation at straits to me! wow! that made my day...

Today is another long day for me~!dunnoe whther can survive.... now currently my fav song is tonite i'm loving u by enrique.. wow!! i can picture u in my mind when listening to this song!hahhahhah

Oh ya i can't wait for thursday!!! going with the floorballers to pasir ris pri i think for a match.. and hmmph.. maybe will blog about it in later post! i just can't wait for thursday! :):):)


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:)

I had a harsh morning... mom had been mad at me for coming home late for past few days... i went out with my colleagues onlee mah..
I cancelled all my plans for today because SHE said that we might go out with my aunt... and since she was angry at me yesterday.. and the day before... she didn't even talk to me... and today i found out she exclude me from the outing.... WAT THE HELL!!! so i had to stay home alone!!! wat the fuck!! i am pissed... i mean u already told me that we going out and i cancelled my plans and u do this to me!!! i was angry!! whenever i had problems with my mom.. the first person i call will be darsha... but i dun want to disturb her u see... so i sat down and watch tv to cool myself down... sometimes i really hate my mom!! she is so childish and not understanding at all!!!!!! tried to reason with her..NO USE!!!!! hello i am 24!!
But luckily my sister came back from skool and told me that she did not want to join my mom and aunt... she asked me to go out with her.. so ape lagi.. we went town... watched movie.. Just Go with it (DAMN FARNI and SWEET!!) eat ayam penyet ria and bought tees from mango and a small bag from mango and jln jln.... then lepak at starbucks at yishun.... guess who we saw..hyrul and irwan shah.. but as usual i am blind at nite so i actually looked at them without really knowing hu they are until my sis say... isn;t that hyrull... haiz.. need to wear specs already!!!! so many youngsters in town..mostly couples.. including gay couples.. hahaha... and the only person i remember is this bodybuilder guy... hhahhaaha the rest are all so young!! oh and one interesting thing... in teh cinema there is this cina guy who watch movie alone and sat beside me... a bit the gay ... suddenly the phone fell on my feet!! terkejut... lucky tak melatah... thought some animal crawling or something...hmmph wat else arh....okay basically nothing much... really enjoyed the day with my younger sister....

*for the first time u r not in my mind animore... finally....
** "THANKS" to my friend HAL and HAZ..i am starting to think about the person we discuss about...he is cute... good boy...funny...very funny...very very funny and smart.... but will he like me?? do i deserve him?? i am sure he is well liked by many girls too... but i think i will go with the flow lah... but i learnt my lesson.. dun ever make the first move!!! it is always the guy... but hopefully i won't fall for him sia... later he dun want then i will die suffering... okay fazilah dun think so much!!!!!! just go with the flow... if he likes me then i will be overjoyed lah... but if he don't we will still be friends :)
so now i will try not to think about him so much coz i might fall for him and it is risky!! i need distractions!! aaarghhh!!!

Hihihi! me back...

okay let see... hmmph... today will settle my marking hopefully...at nite got tuition and then i can go for my long drive at nite alone!! -emoing... hmm wat to emo about??? oh ya about my pathetic life now...only working(weekdays) and family(weekend).... maybe i should sign up for some classes or sports....

YA!!! okay will do it!! :)

now will get back to my marking... and listening to CN BLUE!! and FT Island!!! weeee~!!!

Current mood: 90% happy... 20% confused (now i understand better) ... and 0% mood to the work!!

Hmmmm... okay fine... considering~! hahax!

The last thing i remembered from the other nite was that i was bloggging and youtubing... and when i woke up my laptop is on idle mode... and i dun remember sending my post.... i was that sleepy... in the morning was sooo sleepy but thank god... no need to dress up coz got floorballl

Today was not exhausted!! love floorball!!! ") mr ashari was there.. he was so cool in handling 70 kids alone... and the small matches... so fun!!
But after that back to reality....hahahha...
then ya staff metting ended and here i am blogging first then going to do my work!!!

Quite worried for a friend of mine... he look so exhausted and tired just now... kene "ganggu" i think... i mean this kind of thing to me whoever kena has a lot of bravery... i will sure die and go insane! back to the topic ya poor thing.. gonna ask him again.. if needs any help.. will look for my uncle... he is one guy who i admire alot... he is like ghost buster!! hahhaa he came to my rescue once.. and he noes alot of stuff... too bad my dad were not into this spirits stuff... when my dad was young he worked and support the family....so he had no time to master these stuff...

Haiz....DUnnoe when i can meet up with darsha for the hair cut... oh maaybe march holidays!! hahhahax!

Current mood: 60% happy.... 50% confused.... 100% in love again with yonghwa (CN blue member!)

bubble no trouble

Today was hectic... seriously no time to eat but thanks to the sandwich Yani prepared.. can last from 8 am to 2 pm... But i was not as exhausted compared to yesterday....probably coz i really thumbed them down .... after CNY hols..they were so hyper... today i really go all out and was unreasonable but i have to... cannot give face one...found out that Ashari onlee can make it to floorball around 3... so juliana and me panic a moment but have to settle the documents and helpers.. so onlee got time to eat at 2pm... remedial is at 215pm... gobbled down but can't finish my food.. i noe it sounds weird but i love my math remedial class...the kids probably.. and onlee 9 of them... i am glad that last week all turn up.. but today shafie was not there :( he had high fever... so not the full class...
Aniwae after remedial lesson.. eng vetting.. lucky me... it was with devi and raz... a bit stress coz it was my first time setting... but i learnt alot... seriously man...i finally understand how things work though last year i sat through the vetting thingy but only just now i understand completely... wahahhaha and as usual that raz and devi will make me luff... ended 5 30... went to watch the floorball match and help to tidy up the documents... so aaround 610 finished... then went out to buy foood and ya we ate in school... JC was damn cute lah... and saw her for the first time eating rice with hands... hahha... see tat's why i dun mind going back late from school coz the people around me are gerek and fun like JC>..amanda... devi and pathma and juliana... they are seated near me and ya i believe that the people we work togetheer with play apart in our life.... without them and if i am always alone at my work place i think i will just give up teaching man!! no luffter and fun wah!! can go crazy!

Preparing to go home at 830 but ended up going home at 9...my mom and my elder sis fetch me coz i lazy to walk and waste money take cab :)
then here i am...

current mood: 99%sleepy 85% happie

bubble trouble

Today was AAAAAArrrgh~! had three hours of sleep... zombified...
morning was okay... except a bit sleepy and doing my lesson plan.... lesson started at 9am till like 130pm only with two separate periods break.. exhausted!!!!!!!!!!! the class was quite rowdy today... i guess after long break.. tml i will drill and fry them!!! hehehehhe....
okay no time to eat~! lucky i bought first... then 130 straight to hall for floorball.. get the documents ready....then go back staffroom to eat! then went back to hall... till 6 pluz due to the first match delay... wah~! can die!! Then i start to do my work... worst thing i forgot my charger!! luckily my friend's one was there!!! haahha... so did my work till like 7 plus coz skoool closes at 8pm... then ate dinner with amanda JC and pathma.... was quite fun! not awkward! hahahhaaha i guess there will be many more dinners with them :P

looks packed rite... my mood for the whole day was damn shitty and i didn't laugh at all..even jon noticed my mood today.... i dun bother to smile at my students and maybe some teachers tat i walked past...i felt bad but i was really drained....after i had my proper lunch... talked to the girls and they made my day a bit... hahaha but after the match i felt much better and more alive!! haahahah..

Tml is another day to conquer! a super long day for me... a few breaks and math remedial and vetting and floorball.. haiz... but thank god tml is the last day for the floorball matches... so i need not stay and supervise the matches... i rather play with them.. aniwae ya... after tml.. wed thurs and fri will be quite relax not so pack...

that is my life... sad life... go home nearly pengsan!! but mom fried chicken for me.. how sweet and i am online just to blog about my day...

SO now wishing and hoping that i can survive tml...need my smile back!!!!

Current mood: 99% tired 99% sleepy 30% happy ( found my memory card last nite..) 70% sad (dun want to talk about it)

Today was productive... but still can't find my memory card :(

Went rubinah to accompany my aunt and mom for lunch... i onlee drank lycheee syrup... nicee!
Then sent my grandma and aunt back to ang mo kio... :( will miss them staying with us.... then we sisters went to northpoint!!... did a quick shopping and eat berrylite!! was fun... both my elder and younger sis did not quarrel!! hahhahah amazing man.. then drive to sembawang beach and back home... a quick getaway from our house!...

Now me very hungry :( no food for dinner.. though i ate mee siam a bit at about 6pm.. now feeling hungry... haiz.. looks like i am going to starve for the night...maggie mee i think no more... okay back to work.. still left with lesson plan both weekly and math remedial....

Oh ya my addiction is back... bejeweled on facebook!! arrrgh.. i was playing and playing not realising it has been almost one hour plus... wow!! scary... started on thursday i think.. very rustyalready.. but i need to be back on the chart!! i want to be top 3 again.. now my positionis 9... how sad... hahahhaaha...

oh ya just checked my email in the afternoon.. down for 2 vettings...friday and monday... valentine day gone???? hahhaha... wait.. i am single!!!!! hahahahhax i am free!!! aniwae me might be meeting my bestie if she is not meeting her bf... complicated rite... hahahah me and her bf will always like "fighting" over her...

if not just lepak at home lor....celebrate with father and mother...oh ya i thought of giving small gifts to the CUPs just a sign of appreciation for accepting me in their grp.. what should i buy... hmmm??? i still got time to think....

I shall start exercising soon!! i saw people playng basketball and i miss playing the game!! maybe i should start... but wat play with random chinese guys??? hahhaa tat's wat i used to do.. some kids will join and maybe the guys who come in 2s.. we will pplay... hahhaha and i am the onlee MALAY GIRL... so awkward.. u see rarely malay ppl play basketball.. how to maju like tat!! hahahah okay i will start soon..very soon!! hahahahax...

now so looking forward to March holidays!! the BATAM trip!!! :) but razinah not going :( wonder hu else confirm going but hu cares... i am going BATAM.. finally... never been there!! i noe Katt halawah.. yani.. liza.. nisa not sure.. reduan i dunnoe.. hmmmph...nvm shall ask them tml if i remember!! coz yesterday i ate fish head curry.. memory not so good...

oh ya a fish got 2 eyes!!! whahahahaahax

unexpected turn of event....
last minute dinner with gaya and addy... finally went to casuarina... ate fish head curry! hahaha and addy paid for us!! sweet rite! aniwae he is the nicest one among the guys...hahha... will get for him some things already... dinner was fun and kecoh!!!
then wanted to emo at the seletar dam but gaya being gaya always making us luff!!! plus with that addy..haiyo...now i starting to cough already.... going out with them can reallly forget abt my problems and sorrows....and cannot emo!! but that seletar dam really brought back memories... usually i go there to emo or to chill with him...but being with this 2 crazy friends of mine is totally different atmosphere... hhhahahah luffing like hell... overalll ya had loads of fun and laughters! :) wish time will pause when we are having fun!...
mission finally accomplished but a bit unsuccessful... but hu cares! the main thing i tried and did my best that i could.... okay tml working day for me! ... haix... last minute stuff to complete...

a good thing happen!! hahhaha
lepak at coffee bean and just watched people passing by....
Bought a concealer!! :) just in time to watch my hero on tv!! SALMAN KHAN!!! on vasantham! :)
yahoo!!! bonus... arbaaz khan also acting! both brothers!

depressed

Went jalan kayu just now... ate prata and bought nasi briyani for lunch...
Then got no plans already :( i want to go out!!!!

Packed my room a bit and i really lost my 8G memory card filled with songs and photos together with my memory card reader... haiz... i am so forgetful and careless... haiz.... haiz.... really man no mood to do anything.... mom made noise tooo abt us being into korean stuff... today is really not good day except for the breakfast part.... when reached home all these happen... haiz....
That is why i feel like going out!!! aaargghh.. darsha is working today...hopefully i can get the car and go for a long drive alone??? hmmmph maybe...

sobz sobz sobz.... wonder whether gd things will happen later on....


current mood: 90% depressed 100% moodless

Went cine!!
Wah so many shops opened...
went there booked tix to watch rebound then we explore orachard (the ulu roads..)
Check out scape.. but it was quiet..but alot of mats and minahs outside lepaking....
went pastamania.. quite unpleasant experience... i showed them my super black face... then finally watched rebound!! awesome and super sweet movie...

It is about a love story between a 40 yr old divorcee and a 25 yr old guy... super sweet and touching.... esp in the end when they meet up again...no regretz watching it with bestie :)

Okay left one and a half more day for my mission to be accomplished...i think i can do it :D coz i already have accomplished 50% with much difficulty... unable to concentrate on my work and my other stuffz...lucky out with darsha i am okay :) forgot to tell her some stuff!!! ooopz...

aniwae gd nite for now... you-tubing!!

been eating alot...
yesterday ate roti kirai aka roti jala
today mee siam.. oh ya we baked kuih tart also...

can't wait for tml dish!!

will be going out with bestie later!! :)

Now me watching game plan!! the rock (dwayne johnson if i am not wrong) is so wow!! love the body!!!

Gosh...wish i can read your mind!

back again...

finished reading a few articles online...and blog hopping...
forgot to mention... in swensen they asked me about my dream guy... and coincidently addy wish that i will get my dream guy soon in the morning...so wat's with this dream guy?? i gave a thought to it... got inspired by some blogs...

I used to have an image in my mind about a dream guy ... just like salman khan... (good body..cute looks.. six packs... mascular....funny)
It is true that if i see mascular guys i will stare at them in awe... hahhahax
But i realise that now being more mature than before...physical looks are nothing... i mean seriously...i dun care whether he is thin or fat..short or tall... as long as they are pleasant lookin... tak comot or look like drug addict tat kind... Of course we will automatically get attracted by hensem guys but that will last onlee for a short while..
My DREAM GUY:
1. someone who can make me luff....
2. someone who can understand me (difficult to find... i want liberty u see..)
3. someone who can is not pushy, clingy
4. someone who can just blabber with me non-stop if we were to stuck in the lift for hours!!! (once u r in a marriage and u got nothing to talk about... then i guess it will be a bore)
5. someone who can stand my laughter...
6. someone who is caring and kind
7. someone who is forgiving
8. someone who accepts me...(tough one... just wait till they noe my history)
9. someone who approach me first...(as in making the first move)
10. somone who has a heart

BONUS: a dimple...

Tat's all!!! Katt told me... no such thing as the dream guy... which is so true... coz no guy is perfect and what we desire is all perfections...

Now i have given up in finding already..just waiting for Halawah's friend and see how it goes... other than that i felt quite tired already.. i think now i will just pamper me myself and I.... by the way i always believed that my "dream" guy will somehow find me here...

Just feel fucking fed up!!!!!!!
What the fuck is happening sia!!!!
finished blogging.. then wanted to watch tv... since everyone left the living room... so i changed... then she have to come out and change all the channels... she dun like she walked away and ask us to off the tv since nothing she like on tv....what the helll!!!!!.. the next family member came just took over the remote... like what the fuck... tired of giving in sia...and worst part... i hardly watch tv!!! Crap... fucking crap!!!! i am pissed!!!!

Current mood: 100% feeling fucked up!!!!!!!!! 0% happy!!!

dun assume

DOn't assume! if u are unsure forget abt it or ask!! i have learnt my lesson...

aniwae HAPPY CHNESE NEW YEAR to all my CHinese friends and colleagues..
Just now celebration was okay...have to parade... quite scary and i was shivering lah...
Okay then took some pictures and off to swensen! there are like 12 of us!! hahhahaha... gerek!!! had fun! but northpoint is too crowded.. tak reti nak balik eh budak budak ni semue... cold storage even worst.. packed like sardines...

then met my mom to fetch my grandma and off to little india... and guess wat... i can do parallel parking!!! woo~~!!!u noe wat i am still wearing the chinese costume....

okay then went home,,,, on the way i was thinking... this hols will be quite boring...coz i have no PLANS!!!!!!! wat the helll... okay thurs family day.. my nenek is here.... friday i will try meet up darsha :) okay weekends??? errrrr... i want to go out!!!!!!!! i feel like watching movies..eat ice cream... sit down and watch people.. and waste some money!!! wahahhahahhahahahahahahahhahahax! if need be i will go out wth my adek and just spent on her.. i dunnoe why but i feel happy to spend for ppl .... used to pamper my bf and darsha.. now i spent on my adik and darsha...That's another piece of my llife...

i will just go with the flow lah this weekend... anyway got my marking to catch up too....

feel like eating maggie mee now... hmmmph..

okay chow gonna eat..

current mood: 52% happy...70% disppointed... 2% hopeful

love

Was listening to hindi songs...
A thought just strike me...
It is very saddening and scary to see someone u love just walk away or leave u all alone... (missing my grandpa so much... just by staring at his photo in my workplace can bring me tears...)

If u love someone.. tell them..if u are unsure how or coz of your ego... atleast show them that u love them...before it is too late... that reminds me to call my granny tonite... haiz... though she loved me the least... i still do love her and i am afraid to lose her...

oh ya the word came to me yesterday!! i was thinking about this particular word..
it is ELECTRIFYING... a feeling that is unexplainable...