I didn't know that breaking up is damn tough.
I felt it was alright initially but some of my friends are not supportive of my decisions including my MOM!! WTFH!
They made me feel as if i am a bad evil bitch just because he is sweet and kind and all the sort that every girls want in a guy. But i am not like any girl!! I thought i did the right thing. I freed him so that some other girls can appreciate his lovable character.
What my colleague say is true. I will be affected by what people say. Since i was small i didn't really cared abt myself... i tend to follow others and take orders from them.. i am afraid to stand up for myself... finally i realise my weakness... This is the first time that i really made up my mind and do what i think is right for me.... and see what happen.. i end up hurting alot of ppl.. especially those i cared about... hurting him is one thing.... hurting his mom and dad and grandma and grandpa...i really can't take it.... i really missed them and they had actually become a tiny part of my life...
If you happen to read this... i hope u understand that i am doing it for your own good.... u deserve someone better who will appreciate you....
For me, i am not finding for mr Right anymore... all this love is seriously BULLSHIT!! it will just cause us pain...

-the guilt will not go away until i noe u r happy.... u will always be my friend....