WOW! wat a week!! i mean seriously WAT A WEEK!!!
-excursions.. to observations and excursions..
hectic.. finally a week off.. but gosh!! got Maths assignment to be handed in by this friday!!! damn!! feel like paying someone to do it for me!!!!

Practicum went well... thank god..but really need to see how to handle those misfitz... haixz.. why can't he observe my P5!!! they are the best!!! the P5 are the best!!!!

Okay many ppl haven really see me online often.. thousands apologies... me have no time!!! seriously packed... left skool usually 3 plus four... if early i will go out with my mom.. if not go home and take a nap before heading down to tuition..

If i'm online.. i will only be playing bejeweled! and of course youtubing!! other than tat NO!! i hardly sign in to msn.. facebooking hardly now except for the games... sometimes i forgot to blog also..

The only thing that i fear now is that the repeat of my past.. I just wish it won;t happen to me all over again!!! I think it's better if you just go away and disappear...just like wat u love to do rite??.... why does shit happen to me always.... haiz go away... shoooo~!

ANd the not-so-great-news is that hairil want to get ENGAGED??!!!! WTFH!! wat am i suppose to do???
Seriuosly i am scared to settle down..i am not ready... i am freaking scared... I dun noe why... whenever he mentioned about that i will freaked out seriously!!!!!!! i always will change the subject or i will say see first......... i am scared!!! i dun want to get married!!!! i dun want tobe engaged either!!! i just want to be left alone!!! go away!!!!!!!! i am freakin out now!!!! shit!!!

IS it because i am like tat or is it because of someone else??!!! I JUST DUN NOE!!! all i noe that everyone has a soulmate and my soulmate is not Hairil.... I am sure about it.. i am in a deep mess...wat the hell am i suppose to do!!! and the person i thought was my mr right turn out he hated me!! wat the hell!!! aarggh!!! it's like i dreamt about him eversince so long ago before even i knew his existence!!! wat the hell rite..my life is screwed... u noe wat.. whoever is reading this shitty thing. u will be glad to noe that u might be the first to read about a girl who digs her own grave!! If i really marry Hairil, i think u guys should noe that it is based on a compromise..... i give up searching for my true love because in the firstplace i have no fucking idea wat love is... and secondly all i noe is tat i should be like extremely happy with someone who wants to marry me.. but guess wat i am not HAPPY!!! so wat the hell?!!! can someone just knock some sense into me and make my decisions!! i seriously dunnoe wat to do!!!! u noe i just felt like running away to other country but i can't... i got bond to pay... the only way for him to release me is when i find my true love but that stupid guy hates me!!! what should i do ppl?>? help needed... sometimes i feel like gping for counselling.. i really need someone to solve my problem.. everytime i fight, i ended up being defeated...

we will see how my future goes.. i am Afraid what future holds for me.. i just wish i could like be single again..

aniwae this one week hols i will really relax my mind..... will do some shopping alone... will ambik angin alone at the usual spot and see the sunset...