i realize it long time ago lah babe!! hahahax. been there done that!!!
Aniwae ya.. tml my observation..for both maths and english. kinda of scary but i have to do it... classroom management..hmmmph... P3 may have problems but since the best teacher is there :) hopefully have a smooth journey... and then p5 very nice!!!...but BLUR!! seriously the class is infested with blur ppl... as blur as someone finding for their ws on his friend's table and bag thinking it is their seat!!!!!!!!! tat one i blurt out luaghing!!! but they are just too adorable.....'Imagine they come out to you and say teacher i still dun understand.. how can you scold him or her rite? they look very poor thing... i feel for them lah.. tat is why they all trying be honest and then u find out that there is a whole lot of ppl who dun noe how to simplify??!!! wat the hell rite?!!... i still finding ways to juggle between the fast ..the slow.. and the blur!!
i see some teachers really scold the kids for being blur but i think it will not work coz they will become more blur!!.. i admit i am blur.. my brain wires will tangled up if some one talk too fast or there is alot of instructions and so many things to do... sometimes i dunnoe why i will just nod my head but then i dunnoe wat to do later.... everything is so hazy tat kind... if i want to ask question i dunnoe how to start.. but i experience before some ppl actually will noe i blur then they actually patiently take their time to like repeat the instructions or like ask me where did i get lost tat kind... Thank you so much for understanding me!!
ANiwae ya i am still blur FYI.. the switches between my thinking is not as fast yet...
tat is why i always need sometime to mentally prepare myself.... I noe why i turn out this way....

I believe in the olden days ppl say that if they call you stupid stupid... you will really end up being stupid... so since primary school.. my friends call me Fuzzy!... i alwyas thought they meant it Fazi or something,... but i realise it is fuzzy... as in the warm and fuzzy... and have you ever wondered what fuzzy meant? i came across a physics book.. they have a term fuzzy logic... means :
Fuzzy logic is a superset of conventional (Boolean) logic that has beenextended to handle the concept of partial truth -- truth values between"completely true" and "completely false". It is not definite... so more of a blur or in the shades kind of thing.

I feel for those who share similar names :(

ANiwae gtg and do my work~!
Aim to leave staffroom and skool by 3!

hahax. wanted to complain but me also the same!!! wahahahx. aniwae had quite a good week so far... observation by CT i think will be on thursday for both... aniwae ya.. i think i am starting to love my life even bettter... i dunnoe why but it's like i am not DRAGGING MYSELF to school... so i think it is a good sign!!... of course some minor panic attack here and there..but okay...
GOOD JOB FAZILAH!! keep it up... 5 more weeks to go!!!
yahoo!!!! google!!!
will try to sleep at 11 30 pm latest.. can i do it???!!! hhahhahax... we will see!!!...
so many things to buy but hav to wait for my pay!! haiz...

Just watched an episode of Ugly Betty. Can't wait for next thursday... coz she met GIO... (her season 2 ex i think..) But i still prefer Matt and Betty!!! my kakak has just came back home.... she took picture with sezairi.. how lucky! gosh i still waiting to meet taufik outside!! taufik batisah is like so so so so so so cool!!!!! okay i can go on about taufik for hours...

Been very super busy and tired week.. arms still aching due to the badminton game... u noe wat watching bollywood films can actually destress you... to me if i am angry or sad..disappointed..i will watch bollywood films... of course those nice romantic funny ones... it works for me!! :)

okay gtg... do LP!! haiz...

Drained out just because of a kid. He is the onlee one! THE ONE that drained my patience out...............................................................................................................

wow! shockingly this week is quite good!! though i have been sleeping for like 3 to 5 hours every night.
Yesterday was like my hardworking mood day... marked 2 stack of papers till 5pm.. reach home and planned lessons... today will be good too... yeah...... carry out my maths... eng 1 period and then follow the p6 to amazing race.. wish i can join the race too.... i noe it is weird but i like to follow to excursions... u get to go to those places that u won't go often and of course the bad thing we have to be alert and maintain discipline....
aniwae ya i kinda like it reaching school one of the first... maybe sometime first even...it helps me to like be prepared and can eat!!!! canteen open damn early sia.....

Looking forward to Friday! ( to see beautiful ppl!)

U see lah my itchy hands again...
read the rugger blog (which i shouldn't have coz i got millions of things to do... and i just felt so sleepy so i decided to be kaypo..) and poor guy.. he is like writing with emotions and alot of things happen to him then someone like so not sensitive and tag at his tagboard... he is just writing down his thoughts rite...HIS BLOG HIS BUSINESS larh.... i dun like that kind of ppl like find faults and everything... poor guy... Aniwae ya... hopefully he become a stronger person after all the things that happen to him... actually i dun really exactly noe what he is going thru except for him losing the match...all the best to him... and thanks to his blog..i feel more awake...

Oh ya haven tell u all yet... i forgot when..i bloghop as usual and to my HORROR....i came across Hairil's EX's BLOG!!! my gosh... i was like controlling myself so hard not to read but it was so tempting...and ya while i was with Hairil for the first few months..they are indeed in contact.... and it was kinda obvious she likes remember him till now......haiz...... again me and my itchy hands... clicking away...

now back to Lesson planning~!!! gosh!!! i dun mind paying ppl to plan my lesson...hehhhe so i can go sleeep........ talking about sleep.. later i will rush home and sleep before i go tuition.....

U noe wat... i woke up at 12 noon!!! i didn't hear my alarm at all... wth... so i had to rush and straight away went out.... today was fun coz i get to meet and play with Qaifa!..she is super dooper cute!!! but she is so active... see her play and mengiliat isit... makes me tired... so much energy... hahhaha... but it's fun.... we wanted to go marina keppel bay but it was like pouring!!!!!

okay lah ciao! now want to waTCH TV!!!!!

just watch fergie's husband.. he is super duper hawt!!
Watched when in Rome.... funny movie.... the part that i loved most is when 5 pppl squeeze in the small car and the small car went into the building straight to the lift.... hilarious!!

i watched ugly truth again for the 3rd time... still loves it!!!....

haiz... 2 words for me... I'm SCREWED!!! (today is wasted...no lesson plan for next week.... how screwed can i get rite...i need an angel from the sky to give me 7 weeks worth of lesson plan for both eng and maths.... hhehehehex)

enuff of my nonsense... i will go Sleep..i will try to wake up 4 hours later to do my work!!! Aaargh!!!! and tml i going out... shit man.... i have been cancelling my dates so many time....(girls dun do that ever k..it pisses the guy off..... I"M DEAD SERIOUS!!...told u ppl i'm evil and mean girl when come to relationship..) so ya i have no choice but to please him so ya maybe i will cock up some excuse to leave early .... career is important than stupid relationship.... money talks!!!

okie..ADIOS!!

Just a piece of advice (a reminder to me also):

-No use thinking about the past... it won't change....no use of hoping for something badly that it really makes u suffer and drained all your energy...instead look out for opportunities and other things that will help you out... Learn to let go of the things that doesn't belong to you no matter how much u love it...

That reminds me my favourite pillow when i was small... my aunt threw it away and i think it has to do with Zaini.. not sure what it is but i remembered i was very upset and hated my cousin alot.. but it's for the good since the pillow is not so clean... hahahha... and of course i wasted 1 plus year for "Ostrich" which then i realised i neglect ppl around me....

-So i guess it is better if we think positive and look out for nice and lovable ppl... this world is not so cruel if we really spend some time and spread the love around...

Actually heard about break ups... quite a few recently....haiz... i totally agree with good charlotte song... the Dance floor anthem i think...
We break up it's something that we do now
EVeryone has got to do it sometime
it's okay
let it go
get out there
and find someone...
I noe it's tough.. for me personally my past relationship break ups was not that bad.. i moved on very the fast... probably it is based on mutual understanding.. but of course what i am experincing now is kind of different..it's not a break up..duh~!! but more of wanting a person.. but after hearing stories... NAH~!!! i guess i should be happy with what i have... my rawking SISTERS! My friends!! my family. A good career. A car. wat more can i ask for except for true love (which i think NEVER EXIST!) so ya be happy FAZI!!! i will kill you if you still want to complain about your life!!!! ( talking to myself) hahahhax.

Mistake made: Should have alighted at sembawang...
Good Act: hmmmph....smiling at strangers counted???

been going out alot!! today finally have sometime for myself.. went woodlands to laminate my assignments and shop here and there abit before going home.... missed shopping by myself... spend alot!! my savings nearly gone!!

The more i reflect and think through... the more i feel useless... and the more i feel guilty i think...
the only ppl who knew about the guilt are the ones i love most!!! they still accept me for who i am... thanks girlz!! i dun noe how others will accept me....i always wanted to tell u but for what rite... it only make matter worst... and somemore u are happy now... so wtf...

In my entire life, that was the only biggest mistake i ever made which really haunts me till now.. I thought time will heal everything but no it doesn't coz i always will have the mindset that i am not good enuff for you... ya tat's it... that;s the reason why...i am not good enuff for him!! aargghh~!!! distancing myself is the best for EVERYONE...

Tml visiting my atuk!!!! it has been such a long time.... tml will have to submit my assignment at NIE..then after that go kubur to visit him... can't wait!!! i have lots to tell him..some complains and some good things of course!! :) Missing my atuk so much!!!

WOW! wat a week!! i mean seriously WAT A WEEK!!!
-excursions.. to observations and excursions..
hectic.. finally a week off.. but gosh!! got Maths assignment to be handed in by this friday!!! damn!! feel like paying someone to do it for me!!!!

Practicum went well... thank god..but really need to see how to handle those misfitz... haixz.. why can't he observe my P5!!! they are the best!!! the P5 are the best!!!!

Okay many ppl haven really see me online often.. thousands apologies... me have no time!!! seriously packed... left skool usually 3 plus four... if early i will go out with my mom.. if not go home and take a nap before heading down to tuition..

If i'm online.. i will only be playing bejeweled! and of course youtubing!! other than tat NO!! i hardly sign in to msn.. facebooking hardly now except for the games... sometimes i forgot to blog also..

The only thing that i fear now is that the repeat of my past.. I just wish it won;t happen to me all over again!!! I think it's better if you just go away and disappear...just like wat u love to do rite??.... why does shit happen to me always.... haiz go away... shoooo~!

ANd the not-so-great-news is that hairil want to get ENGAGED??!!!! WTFH!! wat am i suppose to do???
Seriuosly i am scared to settle down..i am not ready... i am freaking scared... I dun noe why... whenever he mentioned about that i will freaked out seriously!!!!!!! i always will change the subject or i will say see first......... i am scared!!! i dun want to get married!!!! i dun want tobe engaged either!!! i just want to be left alone!!! go away!!!!!!!! i am freakin out now!!!! shit!!!

IS it because i am like tat or is it because of someone else??!!! I JUST DUN NOE!!! all i noe that everyone has a soulmate and my soulmate is not Hairil.... I am sure about it.. i am in a deep mess...wat the hell am i suppose to do!!! and the person i thought was my mr right turn out he hated me!! wat the hell!!! aarggh!!! it's like i dreamt about him eversince so long ago before even i knew his existence!!! wat the hell rite..my life is screwed... u noe wat.. whoever is reading this shitty thing. u will be glad to noe that u might be the first to read about a girl who digs her own grave!! If i really marry Hairil, i think u guys should noe that it is based on a compromise..... i give up searching for my true love because in the firstplace i have no fucking idea wat love is... and secondly all i noe is tat i should be like extremely happy with someone who wants to marry me.. but guess wat i am not HAPPY!!! so wat the hell?!!! can someone just knock some sense into me and make my decisions!! i seriously dunnoe wat to do!!!! u noe i just felt like running away to other country but i can't... i got bond to pay... the only way for him to release me is when i find my true love but that stupid guy hates me!!! what should i do ppl?>? help needed... sometimes i feel like gping for counselling.. i really need someone to solve my problem.. everytime i fight, i ended up being defeated...

we will see how my future goes.. i am Afraid what future holds for me.. i just wish i could like be single again..

aniwae this one week hols i will really relax my mind..... will do some shopping alone... will ambik angin alone at the usual spot and see the sunset...

a very-packed-and-hot TUESDAY!

Today was packed.. can't even do any lesson plannig..rellief classes and my 5 periods lesson today.. my 3 period EL lesson became 15 min lesson...why?!!! EYE CHECK UP!!! WTH?!!! and of course learning journey... THey are so cute and adorable and fun but of course they are like super hyper even though they have to walk a long stretch under the hot sun!!!

Initially was quite chaotic... the teacher in charge was like quite fierce and demanding...and my class add problem also.. haiya!! actually was angry...but then she turn out to be very the nice!!! i understand how she feel coz i just realize she did not know the class at all... so ya... i feel bad for being like quite angry at her... but then i learnt something... if the other teacher is like quite demanding or like have the pissed look... it is not your fault..maybe at that moment she is stressed out... just like my case..i seriously understand her now....she is p6 teacher.. taking p3.. the active kidz... wat u expect rite.. hahhahaa... i can conclude that Xishan Teachers are NICE people!! i think i am fortunate... and i dun think i want to go back to Yishun Primary afterall....

Okay ya was kind of upset just now.... it is one of those moments whereby ppl come and go in your life...but this time it end abruptly with no proper goodbye...
oh ya got an idea!! thanks brain!!!

One new thing i learnt: the civil defence they have a vehicle called fireFLY..how cool is that.. never seen one on the road..

Can't believe it... my sister force me to watch cinta ixora! and ya seriously Faizal can't act! aniwae Haizad acts well and he is of course the cutest!!! I continue to watch coz they have lesbianism issue.. interesting and daring... but ya so far the story is okay.. there some twists in it..but like the farhan and zana story...and kamal(acted by haizad)..wat's up with him man... look so pervetic and scary....

Ya now back to work!! haiz.. working working working...


Oh the good news went to causeway point..bought vest and went to eat at banquet yong tau fu!! lazat!!! wanted to go town but i noe for sure i will like spend hours there and will miss rush hour 3!!

REALITY vs FANTASY..... talking abt tat.. hope to catch the movie Alice in wonderland but need to find ppl!!!

Have not been focus rite now.. everything happen so damn fast... and me of all the things i have to do.. i spent like 3 hours straight playing bejeweled thinking i could be the first..but i can't!!! i have to like get 600 000.. how the hell can i do that... i wasted so much time on this darn game!! i hate it!! but too addictive.. time pass so fast while playing it... so now trying to stop and be contented to have my placing as number 2. the first loser!! Haix...

Now listening to REPLAY... still the best song ever for me... haven gotten sick of it...aniwae i seriously miss the muttons!!!!! and yippie on monday they will be back...

Visited my nenek today and my aunt.. the lift to every floor finally done!! and i can't wait for my aunt and nenek to come my house to stay... the more the merrier....

My life is quite sad actually to think of it... busy in school... if have time i will hang out with darsha which now very difficult to do it.. then will go out with hairil depends on the off days which is like once a week like tat... i got 3 tuition and sometimes i prefer to be at home and relax... watch tv..sleep.. eat and ya just slack and talk nonsense with my adik and end up quarelling at times....

I feel sorry for you... wish i could help but i am in no position to do tat...

Some said why bother about those who dun appreciate others... ya i guess i am the stupid fool here...the dumbest fool ever alive.. who do stupid things naive-ly!! therefore, from now on I shall not be helpful to ppl.. be it strangers or acquantainces.. i shall help my closed friends and collegues only.. ya i do help strangers at times FYI... ppl drop things i will tend to pick it up for them... sometimes share umbrella.. and some look lost and i will kaypo kaypo help them... and oh ya ppl not zipping the bags... so from now on i shall mind my own business unless they seek my help...

ya i realise that its better ppl ask for help than offering it coz some ppl just dun appreciate it.. be nice wrong...be not nice also wrong! haiya!


Aniwae i guess i have my motivation back.. THANK YOU to that someone whom i won't mention here or else i wil get killed and slaughtered!

Been slacking alot!!! alot!! even though i hav like so much time in school to do lesson planning for next week...at home i will sleep watch tv and more slacking!!!!

Now need to rush and finish up my never-ending-always-editing-Lesson-plan...

Now waiting to relief 4 deter...They all left me here all alone... hahhaha.. actually they got classes.. aniwae had a good sleep last nite.. wanted to take a nap for like 1/2 hour.. so tat i can watch just for laugh asia.. but the nap turn into a sleep!! from 830pm to 330am... wow!! so i woke up and pack my things up coz it's all over my bed... then tried to sit down and do my lesson plan.. but it's like too quiet and eeary and i'm hungry!! missed my dinner...so i slept back at 4 and woke up at 540. so i think i had a good rest! :) but of course not productive... after skool went out with my adik and mom to SSC..ate banquet there.. go DIY..go popular go giant.... quite syioook coz there is no one like tat...finally bought mouse! coz my laptop the thingy got hole...
GTG for now... tatata~!

Planned for Maths Lesson for next week already! but of course need to type it out systematically...
Haiz.... FRACTIONS FRACTIONS FRACTIONS....
Okay today is like my slackest day!! only last period relief!!! my eng lesson cancelled... Enjoy while it last.... Quite productive today even though i had like 3 hours of sleep...

Can't wait to go home and take my 2 hours nap!!! wahahhahahax before tuition starts... Aniwae I think i should rush all my lesson plan this week for next week.. so weekend can like enjoy a bit...

Lucky got the term break..then tat one week..i shall gear up to do my 2 weeks lesson plan...

Now my objective is to get sufficient sleep like atleast 6 hours.. coz i think i am getting too little sleep on weekdays!! BUt to think of it..on weekends i do sleep alot..

So let see what is left for me to do....

Finalise: - EL LP for thurs and friday
- MathsWLP
Type out: -Maths LP ( Mon - Friday)