The pain is real

As she sat down on her bed.. wild thoughts came into her mind

What if she will be alone for the rest of her life. Her siblings will get married and she will be a burden to her parents.

People admire her as she was a strong single and independent lady but like the rest she needs someone to be there for her and tell her how beautiful she is... assure her that things will be alright... listen to her complains and whines... and cuddle her to sleep... but she was scared.

She always wanted love and attention but the people around her kept showin that love afterall is not as beautiful as it may seems. It scares her. It has been years and she realized that love does not exist except for your parents love which in some cases parents abandon children too.

Love is just an illusion.

She has always been confused and she has kept assuring herself that everything will be fine as a single lady. She can live on her own to avoid  unnecessary headaches and problems. She has been successful in doing that i must say.

But there are times that she will just break down at night alone in her room craving for the love that she thinks she does not believe in.