Memories are strong

No matter what the hero did.. her heart didnt even shook.. her memories are way too strong... even till now...whenever she sleeps, the face still haunts her deep... time will heal all wounds they said... so she hav no choice but to bare the pain till it fades off... weeks months years.. she was unsure. She tried.. the hero tried... tryin to fake it but the heart will never lie

A hero. My hero.

There is always a reason behind someone u meet. I am a true believer of that. Sometimes u can see the reasonings early but sometimes it took mths or even yrs.
People u meet or friends you make teaches us lessons along the ways. Some of the lessons can be torturing (like your most dislike subject in school like history and literature!) or some are happy ones that motivates u to continue learning (like for me PE lessons and math lessons )
And there is someone who just came into my life.. not someone new.. met after nearly a decade.. pulling me away from this agony and mess... really thankful for this person and hope we wont go separate ways again... for the first time ever i felt like there is a solution to my problem... thank u from the bottom of my heart my hero :)

The call

It was an unexpected call.
Remember that girl. She managed to let go everything but that stupid call from him has really made her broken again.

She decided to agree in meetin him to settle everything. Alcohol has a different plan for them.
That moment all she wanted was him. She wished that night will never end. She was gg all out and make the most of it.

She did. She had fun. She learnt more abt this character. No hanky panky and tats what she hates remember. If any guy was to be close to her and try to take advantage, she would have easily walked away. But this guy for the  second time still knows his boundary and that wat drives her mad! Nobody would believed her but tats how it was. That is why it is difficult for her.

All good things have to come to an end. On the way home, she tried so hard to remember every single moment with him because memories are the onlee ones that she can hold onto.

So whats the outcome ppl? Yep as expected the guy is contactin her but she has to be the strong one to pull away from him. Ignorin his texts and calls. Thats the best but the hardest thing to do.

Lets hope she remains strong. Furthermore.she has super understanding and supportive friends. But there is so.much that we can do.

The pain is real

As she sat down on her bed.. wild thoughts came into her mind

What if she will be alone for the rest of her life. Her siblings will get married and she will be a burden to her parents.

People admire her as she was a strong single and independent lady but like the rest she needs someone to be there for her and tell her how beautiful she is... assure her that things will be alright... listen to her complains and whines... and cuddle her to sleep... but she was scared.

She always wanted love and attention but the people around her kept showin that love afterall is not as beautiful as it may seems. It scares her. It has been years and she realized that love does not exist except for your parents love which in some cases parents abandon children too.

Love is just an illusion.

She has always been confused and she has kept assuring herself that everything will be fine as a single lady. She can live on her own to avoid  unnecessary headaches and problems. She has been successful in doing that i must say.

But there are times that she will just break down at night alone in her room craving for the love that she thinks she does not believe in.