Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Karma does exist.
It has been long. Have been occupied with my work and social life.
Updates:
1) Senior Floorball season is over.. i can breathe
2) But.. REMEDIAL AND ENRICHMENT AND CCA for junior is still going on.
3) Planning 2 big events for school in term 3 and 4
4) I have yet to craft the ws!!!
5) I am always not meeting DEADLINES!!
6) Captain ball every friday and sunday. Got 2 know awesome people.
7) Tuition as per usual.
8) Family time... hmmm sat and sun

I have been reflecting about my future for quite sometime now. I believe that if you want to change some things in your life, you got to make that change. If not pointless.
I can proudly say i did a few things. Firstly i change my study course. A big step that many people did not encourage me to take. 2 years wasted. But i am happy with my decision.
I have accepted that if u really loved that person, u are able to let him go peacefully and be happy for him. Now i am happy.

I am not getting any younger and being single for a woman like me at this age is giving me this fear. Starting to question what is lacking in me... where did i go wrong... how will i spend the rest of my life alone... trying to look at the positive side of things but it is just too few to list down...

The strange thing is that i have learnt to accept and i am ready to be single all the way and i know that most of my friends will have their family on their own but i guess i will make use of my free time to help the society. It has all been written. i will just accept it with no question ask from now on. Living alone scares me at times but i can always keep a cat to keep me company :)

Right now i am just looking at the things that i am grateful for.

There are too many to list down but the first and foremost,
1) I am thankful for having a career.
2) I am thankful for having my own room.
3) I am thankful for having wonderful colleagues
4) I am thankful for having wonderful friends
 

Oh ya one more important thing... i realise that love can exist between 2 same sex... i met these new people which i regard them as my friends... they are fun, funny and athletic. all are girls. and they lesbians. it is very sweet to see them caring and lovin each other (not the intimacy part). by nature they are really the nicest people you would want to be with because they understand you and they treat people nicely. they have a heart. karma does hit me. i used to make fun of gays but right now i guess i am gg to fall for a girl... thus that makes me a gay/lesbo too..

But i guess no matter what it is, love is just love. It is something special shared between 2 people. No one will understand the bond except those 2 people involved.

for my case, i will see how it goes... no expectation... no hope... just wanna be happy each day...

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