Life has been hell for more than a month or so...
It was my first time experience this kind of shit.... I thought i was strong.. i thought it wont affect me much.. but it did affect me badly... i was hurt...the worst hit ever... i am not tat strong... i broke down..undergone depression...
However when all this happen... i found true friends.. they endured my stubborness.. they were willing to do anything to see a smile on my face...
For me i choose special people to be part of my life...these special people are really special to me.. These people play an important role in making me happy and i will do anything for them... as in ANYTHING! ... i realized i have chosen them after knowing them atleast 1 or 2 years...
I guess it is my luck that so far i chose the right ones.... except for now...
I thought i chose u to be part of that special people... but i guess i was wrong.. and this is the first time i made a mistake...
even my past relationship with my ex... i have no regrets.. he was/is special to me... but tak ade jodoh... so ya...
That special people includes my family too actually... coz they are there for me and understand what i have been through....
i can still feel the hurt till now fyi...
Now is the part whereby he is okay and back to normal.. and for me.. i am not giving in fully not coz of ego... but i am soo afraid to get hurt and become weak again... i am suppose to be the strong one.... i am strong!! aniwae i guess i trust people quite easily....
it is sad to part and form a line... separation is not easy... but i guess i have to do it... to detach yourself from your special people is hard... it is like one part of u is gone u see... imagine darsha is not there.. i will just die toooo....
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