losin it

I think i am losing it...

I am now is what other ppl want me to be.... hmmmm maybe...
Career wise probably...
personal life... also to a large extent...

My colleague actually made me realised tat yes i am indeed gonna lose myself...
what happen to the time during my practicum days?? where is the enthusiasm?? where is the happiness?? where is the joy of teaching?? when did i start getting frustrated?? did i change soo much??

Hoping to get a clear cut answer to all of this....i shall search for the answer and hopefully i can find it before everything is too late...
frankly speaking i can also feel like what am i doing in my life man!! Right now i will say i have not found any purpose in my life... but i do have one goal which is to be healthy and reduce my obesity level... tats all! but after tat wat??? see no real purpose.. in malay they say takde makne in my life...

i am living day by day...

GOSH~!

i think i need help to sort things out.. coz now it is just me alone....

okay now my brain very runsing...

got floorball now.. gtg... shall update soon once i have the time...