emoing

Just finished watching aadhavan.. Nowadays i have been watching kollywood and bollywood movies... U r in a fantasy when u watched them.. Just like korean drama... Ramadan is over.. I didnt do enuff.. Anihow.. I just want to say tat i cant attain my freedom tat fast.. i always do stupid things to keep me happy without even thinking abt the consequences... tats me i guess.. Haish.. My weakness.. I am emoing rite now.. Dunno y.. But i seriously wish someone will just pick me up and drag me to another world! Rescue me from all these shit!

too much to handle

WOW!! tooo much to handle...

yesterday was awesome! though my 'illness' is back.. i sort off manage to not think about it :)
Wanted to meet up with harshad and fai... but they couldn't make it last minute :( so it is just me and red... saw my uncle at geylang!!! awkward... but i had fun lah... thought it will be boring coz it is just us 2 but ya being with that crazy fellla... boring is not in the list :)

Aniwae now i am thinkin again abt my future... guess it is the mid life crisis?? but again am i too young??

blah blah blah.... sooo manyt things to clear up again...

just gonna write down in my diary i guess :):)

SEE YA!! hari raya in 5 days time!!

preparation

Finally after one week i went to the gym yesterday!! Felt real good!! :) Then went to buke with red fai and zaimi.. The funniest and craziest combi.. Lucky tat indra never come.. If not i will end up crying all nite... I think my life is now much simpler after my previous post :) hahaha!! Now i prefer to be with myself alone :):) Oh ya haven start on that project yet!!! Still wondering wat to do.. Shucks!!!! Sat i will go find the items :) hopefully i can do a good job :)

losin it

I think i am losing it...

I am now is what other ppl want me to be.... hmmmm maybe...
Career wise probably...
personal life... also to a large extent...

My colleague actually made me realised tat yes i am indeed gonna lose myself...
what happen to the time during my practicum days?? where is the enthusiasm?? where is the happiness?? where is the joy of teaching?? when did i start getting frustrated?? did i change soo much??

Hoping to get a clear cut answer to all of this....i shall search for the answer and hopefully i can find it before everything is too late...
frankly speaking i can also feel like what am i doing in my life man!! Right now i will say i have not found any purpose in my life... but i do have one goal which is to be healthy and reduce my obesity level... tats all! but after tat wat??? see no real purpose.. in malay they say takde makne in my life...

i am living day by day...

GOSH~!

i think i need help to sort things out.. coz now it is just me alone....

okay now my brain very runsing...

got floorball now.. gtg... shall update soon once i have the time...

just like tat..

I have no idea why i cant post my entry through my lappy.. Time flies!!! its august! Wooohoo!! Counting down to hari raya!! So i can start my vigorous gymming!! And cant wait to go bali!! Now hav been quite good.. Maybe coz i am really exhausted every day!!!!! didnt lepak already except once a week.. Hahaha!! Okay gonna rest before resume lesson and the long stretch of meeting!!