everything is changing

My illness is back.. Experience it before but this time worst... I am on the verge of breaking down.. no one understand how it feels but atleast my family and friends are there to distract and support me... Worst than last year... Whenever i want to be normal and start on a happie journey something will crop up... because of this i now realised and was reminded why i have to be independent and i shall not complicate my life and as far as possible i will remain single :( Haven told my bestie coz she is already sad without her bf around.. Dun want her to worry.. So far only my close friends at skool noes coz it is awkward and i felt so down :( haven told red fully yet.... But guys being guys they will not understand...One fine day lah after i see the doctor and confirm it again...wish i was normal and healthy :( so when i am down wit this thingy... I will choose to be alone and hoping someone will rescue me... Hahaaaha! Okay k lame i noe! Dunnoe why but i miss u! Hope everything will be back like how it was. But it is just a hope :|

void

Everything will change.. I can forsee it.. Pressured by all sides... They (my problems) know how to make me confused and thus i will auto stop functioning.. No time to think through... haiz.. Aniwae like i said.. Me now in the train otw to gym.. Feels like gg millenia gym!! Should i? Or amk? Hmmm cant decide :( Am i a good friend? Job hazard- i need a rubric to assess it! Hahaha tat reminds me abt the rubrics.. I think i shall go to amk.. Coz then i can do much more exercise!

revamp

Been missing gym quite a lot.. Distractions and all.. No have self discipline.. Me now otw to millenia gym... First workout this week.. Hoping i can be back home early :) really tired and i think i am starting to miss my family actually... Didnt spend as much time as i could wit them.. aniwae marking cleared And then appear again.. Hahaa! Ws not done too.. Gonna do problem sums with them... Floorball getting more tensed up esp for the girls.. Gonna be emotionally pressured and stressed again... Haiz... Want to meet the girls again!! I am starting to miss people rite now axtually.. My girlfriends.. My family.. Halawah.. Jamilah... I think i will drop a message to them :) okay will blog if i have free time Like this ... :).