crapping away while timekeeping

While i typing just now a boy just vomited on the oral paper! aiyoh! Panic!! hahaha but of course amanda the heroin came to the rescue!! She is so calm and relax and handle the matter!! Se even wipe everything... Wow!! I nearly vomited there! Back to me.. Hahha self centred i noe... More work but i clean my tables both at home and in skool. Now can focus on doing work!! Berlambak nak marking.. Want to prepare revision ws also for my students... Alot of werk.. So far mon and tues did atleast 30 min cardio!! Happie me!! Planning not to miss gg gym! Looking forward to saturday! Gay's birthday gathering... other than tat not really... Hahahaa!! I am learning to be selfish and stubborn coz i am now trying to do things that pleases me... i wil onlee make exceptions and small sacrifices for people who i think deserve it.. Coz now i understand who will actually sincerely stand up for me...and those who understands me well enough... oh ya i changed my wall paper on my skool com to john abrHam!! I cant believe i chose him instead of salman!!! Evil me!!

I have been blogging using my iphone.. now everything is new... aarghh.. i am lost...
been saying gonna start anew... still the same shit leh.. more preoccupied now... deadlines!!!!

In skool... no time to do your own work!! yesterday i just realised that time is precious... hahahah coz i really want to finishup some stuff but no time....

I have not enough resilience in me... tat is why i am giving up alot of things... like seriously giving up!! i am tat exhausted that i dun bother abt most of the thing already and maybe it is the time of the year where i fel like being alone by myself...and do watever i want...

red told me my mood swings are bad... i dun want to argue coz i noe it is not mood... everythiing has a reason... u guys just have to GET IT!! u guys are gg around the stupid bush and blame other ppl... blajar tinggi tinggi pun tak ader kepale otak... and i am hppy my girlfriends are thereand stupid m realise that they have been there and i toook such a long time to trust them fully... ya i take tie to trust someone fully... but obviously u cannot trust anyone... hahhaha.... but i trust my bestie alot! hehehe! :) now my gilfriends too :)
gonnna meet them often and luff it out! :)

gonna eat now... very the hungry :)

actuallly got alot to say..maybe later i blog about it :)

turning point! - u turn and i turn right!

Watched 2 movies! But not the ones in my list!! Hahha! I really want to watch the vow!! And titanic!!! Ok k tml starting a new chapter of my life.. Been thinking abt my friend's story..and watching tat documentary.. cmg from a girl's skool did not make us weak... we r actually strong and we r not quick to make judgements.. Ppl are just taking advantage and we are at some points may be perceived as being naive.. Lookin at my character.. I guess i will not survive in this world... To see changes i have to change.. Coz other ppl are not changing... personally i think i have changed not in the good way but i hav to do it to survive.. being good doesn't help all the time... in movies.. The good will always win but it takes time but for me.. Now everything is fast paced.. They keep on pushing me down.. by the time they realise it will be like tooo late... reality is harsh... gandhi believes in no violence.. But see there are still violence.. To me right now it is okay to be mean but be mean to those who are mean... Dun be mean to those who are innocent...just like in a war.. Why not just kill the leaders involved.. Why must u go around killing ppl who has no direct involvment in it.. same thing.. be mean to those who are mean to u.. dun drag their friends in.. The problem is between u two.. And why the toot u involve me!! so now i have a problem wit u! enuff said.. Everytime i face some problems- do i ignore or do i fight (not physically of course even though i would love to at times) .. Does it solve the problem if i ignore? does it solve the problem if i fight? usually i choose to ignore coz nowadays too tired to layan ppl..but if i were to fight back which i did at times.. It gives me satisfaction.. Haiz... Okay dunnoe why i side tracked to this.. but ya now i got to think of strategies to use for................ Teaching lah!! Adios!!

BB

Seriously man i am pissed... Ppl just dun get it... I am the person who has difficulty sayin no to ppl... But if i happen to reject or say no... Tat means i really mean it! atleast respect tat... no use forcing and then blame me for the attitude!! i cannot tell u the reason coz u will get hurt.. To make it simple.. I dun like hanging out wif your these friends.... But i didnt stop u from Doing tat.. But y u keep draggin me in!! Aniwae american pie was okay... But really want to watch the vow!! And titanic!!!

the bimbo

Oh ya forgot to write!! U noe the bitch tat i feel like slapping!! She is still a bitch!!! hahahah! she will not change coz she is still immature and seriously now i really understand the meaning of bimbo after meeting her... All the best to the people out there who will come across her.. I wash my hands off her already!! i will onlee talk to her if i have no other fucking choice.. I am mean i noe but i will be a bitch to u after wat u hav done to me.. Thank god u are not a muslim.. So i dun really feel tat guilty u see... those who read this entry.. I am sorry if u feel angry at me but this is my blog and i will write wataver i like.. if u disagree then too bad lah... I am not tat innocent and good like wat some of u guys think... i do have the evil side and ya i do evil things to evil people in my life.. dun worry she noes i hate her!! hhahaha!! I show it to her.. So tats why i said i washed my hands off her already... She noes it but of course she is trying to bring me down and thanks to my lovely friends who have informed me of everything... hahaha! haiya... I will be the happiest girl if i get to punch her face! like i said girl.. The onlee person u can trust is yourself!

Mr DG

It is such a long time... Everything is back to normal but different of course... my priority is diff now... I really want to lose all the stubborn fats... So starting tml gonna gym seriously... And my work is lagging behind.. playing catch up games! missing darsha now... Dunno why.. me and red back to being friends... i guess i have to say he is my closest buddy and nearly my bestie and a big brother to me but i still have difficulty sharing some of my deepest secret with him... dunno why... Hopefully one day i shall be open to him like how i am to darsha and my sis :) i am fortunate to have great friends around... Aniwae ya who says man and woman cannot be close friends?? of course initially there is some confusion but u just need to get things clear and be frank with each other and all is well! :) Side tracking again... just watched kuch kuch hota hai!!! my dream guy will be someone like salman khan!! He must have either the body or face or charm or voice or humour like salman khan!! He will be perfect if he has everything that salman has!!!!!!!! Please appear mr dream guy!! I shall call u mr DG! Good nitez!! I shall dream abt u DG!!