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HARI RAYA VISITING

Unforgettable! went with my colleagues. 7 houses. From about 1 plus to 12 am!! FUN! alot of children! It has been such a long time since i went out with babies and small children coz my cousins are all teenagers. I carried Juliana's son with my HEELS!! hahhahax! feeling mak mak.. but i salute her man! she has twins and she is the SUPERMOM!!! hahhahax... yesterday was my first time frying nuggets!! scary but kind of fun! first time do the mee thingy... i was trying to help nisa.. hahhaha! but after eating her spicy but delicious mee.... my stomach gave way... diarrhoe..and vomiting! guess my stomach is not as strong as my throat!! goiing visiting like this very the keoh and i kinda like it! I did go visiitng with my NIE friends that time and it was different... very relaxed and calmed... but yesterday was a mixture.. i think coz of the hot mummies! and cute babies! and the princesses and the princes... hahhaha

"PAPPARAZZI"

Guess wat! i am caught in picture with reduan crossing the road....and they made a big HU HA!! surprisingly i can't answer them coz they deny everything i said... hmmmph...and they are "planting" thoughts to my minds!!!! being a woman... which i am ... I AM NOT A KUNSAR k!! i will therefore analyse!
let's see... reduan is a nice guy.. my colleague... and now can say my lepak friend... he can cook... he can decorate... he can put on make up...do my hair... he is talented... he is good looking... hmmmph... i love hanging out with him and harshad and halawah coz very the gerek!!! they are crazy ppl who never fails to make us luff!! he is supportive and has helped me in changing my image to be more girl! THANK YOU reduan!! okay so what to analyse arh!! oh ya he is always cheerful and jokin around...
To me he will make a great boyfriend! coz he got talents and loooks! hahhahahax! wnder why his ex left him also...i guess his nature is as such... loves to help ppl and spread joy...so confirm chop guarantee there is no special treatment for me right people??? so in conclusion, he treats me just like his close friends! Furthermore, i am still confused and unstable with no life girl... guys especially see me as their good friends only... fullstop. In sec sch JC and NIE... haiz... guess i have these tomboy traits...so duh!!! if my very first crush( 6 years ago) doesn't even like me... how can reduan likes me rite?? he deserves better girls lah...must be practical at times... i know where i stand k... OMG i can't believe i am doing this!!

Therefore, after analysing it, i think he treats me like a friend and i guess he is in one of my close friend list!.. u see i have limited number of friends.. hehhhe!! I am honoured to have such a talented friend. Hey!! if i think tooo much... it will be awkward and weird coz i might fall for him suddenly since everyday i will be seeing him in school... NONONONO!!! that is called digging your own grave!!! NO SUCH THOUGHTS!!! ya so ppl who happen to read this.. dun spread rumour!! We are just good friends :)

I am going to let this matter go off from my head asap and be as normal as possible coz i feel quite awkward around him and his parents already... *meditate fazi meditate*

GUY ISSUE

SO now i shall look around for muscular guys?? (NO NO!... high chance of being a gay!).. super skinny guys (kumar??? NOOOOO!) or maybe i just want a broad shoulder guy....taller than me...older than me....mature.....stable... pleasant looking face (dun want hensem one like UTT! or Haizad!!... cannot trust)....and the palm should be bigger than mine..okay maybe this sound reasonable... oh attitude wise.. he must be kind hearted.... okay now i am dreaming about my mr right who i not sure exist or not! This is one thing.. the other thing.. i willll NEVER tell the guy that i like him coz i learnt my lesson :( then how like tat rite....haiz i just wish he will appear in front of me and say that ''Hey GIRL! i am your Mr Right?" kan senang rite....hhhahaha dream on!

I believe in soulmate aka Mr Right. (who is he?... MY HUSBAND!...who is my husband... still finding...)

Fazilah's mission in finding her Mr Right! but right now i am tired (too much has happened).... need a break first... next year i will do this mission more heartily....

SCREWING MY LIFE

All i can say now is 2011 has not been that kind to me yet... still got 3 plus months to go... so hopefully it will be much better....my life is screwed about 70%! I just wished that my family can be a normal and happy family like my friends' family....
I was thinking about it... when i am with my ex... his family is always there for me.. and i find happiness in his family...but after i broke up... all i see in my family are flaws... worst i cannot tumpang kasih aniwhere... except darsha's family... which at times are hard coz my mom dun like my bestie for dunnoe wat reason!!!! ... i feel like i am crazy and weird coz i go around wanting the happiness that i desire... is it normal??? NOOO!! so u see my life is screw up rite???!!!

wow!!! i am being so direct... hopefully my family members or relatives dun get a heart attack reading this!! This is just how i feel.....