Good start of the week~!
Thanks to u!!!
Forget..Forgot... Forgotten.

However i will not be able to forget this!
To somebody:
I think u have no manners and rude. It is not nice to just ignore that person. If you dun like it than just say excuse me and walk away. She did nothing wrong and i think it is just personal grudges or jealousy or watever lah.. God noes wat also... Very insensitive of you..... If i ever see your stupid face again..i feel like splashing chilli sauce all over your soo-not-nice face!! worst than a gruffalo!!!!! I really want to write wat happen long time ago.. but now i can't stand it already...and to write the whole thing down will cost me my reputation...

Aniwae ya.. all is well.. except my 10 year old water heater burst!!! so have to bathe cold water tml.. furthermore it is now freezing sia... and we nearly got cheated by 250 bucks.. the 2 old man really want to "ketuk" us... they say 580 for a new water heater to be install.. so we say we will source out first and finally found out that the same brand water heater cost 200 plus labour charge total 330... nonsense people u noe... i have learnt to source out first before deciding what to purchase especially when the cost involve hundreds... really must be careful k!!

Oh ya a sad news... have to go back to NIE from 10 May to 23 May... i was so looking forward to it but guess wat?!!! the programme starts at 830 all the way up to 530 for the first week.... so demoralizing!!! i mean i hate traffic jams!!! esp jln bahar there... going back also aargjhh!!!
But if i were to take public transport... i will have to kiss the door of the mrt train...both traffic and human jam... why must they make our life so miserable??!! isn't practicum miserable enuff?????? atleast at Xishan my trip only takes up at most 20 min. and i could go home like at 2? unless got markings or meeting lah

Haix so not looking forward to the induction programme.. and i am loving Xishan Pri man... so gerek the ppl who sits around us...oh and our programme is all at NTU!!! Dunnoe what lecture room lah.... haiz.. I prefer NIE campus cosy and not so fast-paced compare to NTU and lunch time there very the packed!! i dunnoe why i am bullshitting here..... I am glad actually tat i enter NIE instead of SIM... I think i would still be finding job after finishing my studies... haix.. all that matters after completing your studies is finding the job part... no matter if u r from ITE or Poly or UNI... the end point is to survive the working world.... I noe a few ITE/ Poly students earning the same as UNi ppl...they got the job that doesn't match their cert... so ya tat is why i dun really care whether my bf or husband to be has only ITE cert as long as his job is stable and he earn a decent amount...and not lazy... so ya fortunately Hairil is like tat... i am proud of him actually.. i can feel that he is pressured because of me being a teacher.. so he is trying to clog as many over time and he works hard... tat's the good thing....

oh ya and to my surprise those University bus3rdZ actually look down at NIE students??? why? just because we can't get into local uni? wait till u have your cert and go into the working world..(except those intellectual ppl who has secure a job even before they graduate)... Wat's so bad about NIE? i mean it is a place where teachers are trained.. regardless whether diploma..degree.. etc...some of course not fit to be a teacher lah i agree.. but they will discover it themselves when they are there...i mean u have to try to noe it... some may discover the passion when they are in NIE.. some are still finding.. so they need time.. and its hard for them to back out coz of the bonds.... i think if they have no bonds... those who have not so good attitude will of course leave the teaching industry.... Is NIE tat bad?.... it is just quite shocking to me to hear that... Thank god my friends in NTU and NUS is not like u people... they never ever look down at me like how u bus3rdZ did...AND FYI..those insensitve people are locals...not international students...

finally i feel relieved coz i let it out.. :)
To me i think when u say somethin u better think first.. dun just shoot...this is one of the rarest time i feel hrt when hearing that comment... a confession.. i was under depression for quite some time when i didn't do well for my A's.... the first time i feel like a total failure in life.. i can't get to local uni.. and my family can't afford overseas studies...of course pressured by families and all... then ya i realize that i am no good and useless... the only thing i could do is help others not to become as useless as me...wanted to be a social worker but i was afraid i sould not handle that much responsibility yet... so i thought of serving the school first...and help the kids... that is the only way to pay back my failure guilt... i am trying my best to create a difference in their lifes and as far as possible, i dun want them to feel that they are useless.... to me i have disappoint my family by not entering local uni ( what's with all of them man!!) u noe what my mom will sometime still say why my dauighters cannot go nus... wtfh... when she say that, my kakak will talk back and for me, i feel like a failure again.. so ya..this failure feeling will always come back..so far the only sensitive thing for me to handle is my failure to go local uni..i think if my tok was alive..he is the only one who can make me feel otherwise...

wow.. this is the first time i actually talk about this.. hehehex..