Bestfriend? no way!! hahahax. how cute...

aniwae today was sports carnival... had fun..saw the kids are having fun too... no lesson except playing.. how cool is tat??? i was helping Ms Faridah with the first aid and time keeper... hahahahaa... no casualties! pro man we all... i went around the atation..man i feel like playing sia... but cannot... haiz... then the students went for the walkathon...wanted to join the p5 and p6 but i can't lah coz first aid stanby in school... so ya slack again... hahahaha
The weather is good thank god... but at 10 plus it was scorching hot... but they made it through... in my point of view... i think it went very well... the students are not chaotic... they didn't disappear and run all over the place which i think is good...teachers are also very on and they help one another.... so cool man... by 11 30 all assemble in the hall.... had fun... then went to swensen with mel cheryl seok and jonathan.. and we met Miss Low Miss Juliana Miss Kong Mr andrew and miss amanda there... we call them the "big shot" ppl.. coz 2 of them HOD and they are like p6 teachers.. hahaahhax...
The teachers tehre super kind..in the morning they asked about my hand...i mean so sweet of them sia... in school if u injured only your friends close to you will be concern... but this one other teachers came up and asked.. though i didn't talk to them tat much... how sweet is tat!! thanks to Mr Kiran for hinting to the staff that i injured my arm and mr imran announcing it in the hall....
I think coz my first time playing volleyball.. that is why my upper arm muscle strain... it was a small pain so i continued playing until it got worse i can't move my arm.... so mr gomez suspect it can be elbow dislocated which is a very serious thing.. so the ever talented cheryl help me out by putting ice and ya teachers inform Mr Kiran the principal and he came to the rescue.. he checked my arm and finally said it's a muscle strain due the arm tension when hitting the balll.. something like that.... too cheam for me.. and i was so happy of course!! hhahaha but pai seh lah... principal noe about this.. later he think i very weak... aniwae ya Mr Kiran is a sports person and he knows alot of things about sports... Mr Gomez too... they are like the sports guru!

They are damn nice... i want to be a part of XIshanites!!
but i still love peixin but unfortunatelyy they merged and ya everything is different about it :(

So the very happy!! (S.S.A)

hahax. Now marking...
Tuesday filing again!!

last nite was trying hard to watch glee online but failed..only watch like first 10 mins than like they stop that kind... but there is not much scene of rach and jess and cory and mark.. will never give up.. tonite will try again..
10 may will come soon... quite happy but very sad... i dun feel like leaving this school man.. will miss alot of fun ppl around and the food and the students!!! so sad!!! wish i am posted back here... like seriously man.. i do miss my NIE friends though but going back to NIE like nothing to look forward to... especially when we have to reach at 830 or 9 in the morning....going back at 530??..haiz...sianz!!!! but the good thiing it won't be crowded coz they having exams and i think over is it? i also dunnoe... oh no the venue is NTU...even suckier...now my mood is not tat good anymore coz thinking about all this stupid stufff... better not fazi!! go mark!!

Tml is sports carnival.. some will have walkathon.. they walk to northpoint one round and come back to the school... there are games in the hall and field and courts..... wow!! tml will be fun!!! (W.T.N.S.S.A)

Miss u!

Still loving that song and other glee songs... makes me smile everytime i hear the songs....
now marking... and ya had a packed day!! my 2 period was given back to me followed by 2 relief periods.. so 6 periods straight!!! plus assembly so that makes it 7 periods straight!!!!
exhaustion is the word right now.,..
but had lunch with ms rita and the P5 had TT... quite fun knowing the teachers... i starting to feel attached to the skool.. damn... i can't believe i'm saying this but i hope i get back this skool :)
okay back to y mp3 and marking!!

It's good not to hear from you for once :)

Aniwae went out with Along (my kakak)....ate briyani and icecream and walked from somerset to city hall... love the night breeze!! it was a nice walk... wish can do that often....haiz now busy :(

2 more weeks to end of practicum...haiz...a part of me want to go straight to teaching.... however a part of me can't wait to cross over... sometimes i am tired of studying... i enjoy teaching more..... but i guess the best is that i can cross over hopefully and my problems will be settled i guess....

Ya been thinking alot lately..... the decision i have to make by july.... it;s either me or that someone will be hurt real bad!!.... should i deserve to be happy by making someone else hurt or should i continue being unhappy to see that someone happy???....

Damn i need a counsellor...

emo-ing

Loving the song and lyrics of Like a Prayer from Glee..the moment i hear this song i really melt... so nice!! i am falling in love with this song...
If i have the courage i would openly dedicate this song to you :)


Glee - Like A Prayer Lyrics
Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone.
I hear you call my name and it feels like
Home

When you call my name, it's like a littlePrayer.
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour, I can feel your power
Just like a prayer, you know I'll take you there

I hear your voice, it's like an angel sighing

I have no choice, I hear your voice,
feels like flying

I close my eyes,
oh God, I think I'm falling
out of the sky. I close my eyes
Heaven help me.

When you call my name, it's like a littlePrayer.
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour, I can feel your power
just like a prayer
You know I'll take you there.

Like a child, you whisper softly to me

You're In control just like a child,
now I'm dancing.

It's like a dream, no end and no beginning.
You're here with me, it's like a dream

Let the choir sing.

When you call my name, it's like a littlePrayer.
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour, I can feel your power
just like a prayer
You know I'll take you there(repeat)(oooh ohhh ..ohhh)

Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone.
I hear you call my name and it feels like home.
Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a muse to me , you are a mystery
Just like a dream, you are not what you seem
Just like a prayer, no choice,
Your voice can take me there.

Just like a prayer, I'll take you there.
It's Like a dream to me.(repeat)

Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone.
I hear you call my name and it feels like home.
Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a muse to me , you are a mystery
Just like a dream, you are not what you seem
Just like a prayer, no choice,
Your voice can take me there(Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there)
Just like a dream, you are not what you seem
Just like a prayer, no choice,
Your voice can take me there.

Won't pity u anymore... u are asking for it Mr arrogant...

Okay had a fun time just now at Science Centre. Initially i thought i will be extra bored coz last minute i realise i not taking 6 deter...they put me at 6 creative.. i never taught them before and didn't get a chance to noe them yet... But after a while there are some gerek students there... able to mingle with them and they are helpful bunch and funny ppl around.... as well as strange and weirdos and also smart and creative ppl...nadiah(kecoh) syafiq(helpful and cekik darah) and this pakcik with the friend... the chinese guy with the face toy and the group of girls who won the skyscraper thingy...oh and isa (the active onez)..i bad at names.. the names i remember is the ones i come across before... liek nadiah and isa and syafiq... the rest luper sikit... bad at names....oh and ADAM!! how could i forget the irritating guy...hahaha actually he is not tat bad..just very lame... okay ya had fun.. wish i got brothers man..i dun mind having younger bro.. i'm stuck with 2 sisters...
Had fun there...able to snap some photos with Mel..the camerawoman... ate mac!!! and i dun feel exhausted surprisingly!!! duh they are P6 :)

So looking forward to meet the 6 Creative ppl and can have a blast again since i am going off in like 2 weeks time... too short a time to spend with them.. recess time!! will miss my P5 and P6 and P3?? hahhahaa of course i miss the P3... no matter how naughty they are..everyone is so cute in their own ways...

Hmmmm exam nearing..worried for the class... need more periods with them...seriously man.. wish i can take the art and pe periods...hahhahahha evil me!!

Speechless!! i got a distinction for practicum!! weee~! dun care whther high D or low D as long as it is a D!!! weeee~~!!! Alhamdulilah!!!
SO many ppl i would like to thank... seriously man without them i think i will just pass my practicum and preparing to sign up for unisim.

Hmmm.. first of all i would like to thank pretty Melissa. She was the first i told about moderator coming. I dun want to tell the rest yet coz i was unsure and my prof didn't tell me anything.. so ya being Mel, she helped me alot by passing her LP and her planning for ratio. SHe is always there beside me coz we share table!! hahahahax...
Secondly jonathan or we call him joey jon.. hahahhax... ever so helpful with IT stuffz..the one who intro the dropbox to all of us.. anyway ya he last minute i ask him to rush to photocopy for me and hahaha i "stole" the com to print lesson plan... how on earth should i noe Dr Salleh will appear 15 minutes before my lesson start??!!! of course panic lah...
of course tehre is Seok, the bubbly and fun-loving seok.. she of course always volunteer to help out even though her CT like transfer her whole burden to seok.. poor girl but she manage it well.. and left with talented cheryl...really admire her man..she got the firm and strict look.. furthermore she is musically inclined... can play guitar piano...how cool!!! i always like my teacher to be like her...they can teach and play coool musical instruments... aniwae ya she is ever willing to share resources with me..i am very grateful...seriously thank god for all tehse wonderful people that enter my life.... imagine i have a bunch of trainees which refuses to help out and dun share resources.... will i ever have a moderator come to see my lesson?? or will people ever see me smile or laugh in the staffroom?? Then lastly Ruan HUi..my GESL mate..., he is funny and sweet in his own way... i mean he will put a smile on everyone's face... my badminton mate.. hahaha... he is very good and we share same pupils and he understand what i went through with the P3.... so ya tat's the NIE trainee... have i added me and Ruan HUi is the only diploma students... i thought dergree ppl and PGDE are arrogant but they proved me wrong!! :) love them!!!
Next group is Farida, Ju, SU and Mdm Maimonah...the gerek ppl... funny bunch of ppl that never fails to make me laugh everyday... they also show care and concern to me.... in other words they motivate me and ya they help to calm me and share my sorrow and happiness...
Mrs Sam my scm... wow!!! fabulous..she is so damn kind to the extreme!!! she is always smiling and always ask us if we are fine and all.. very caring..
My CTs... I talked about them before.. will again talk aboiut them..Ms Devi is so wonderful!! she is liek a friend to me... she is willing to help me by taking this ADHD and problematic boy out... how kind is that... she helped me when my moderator came budistracting him while i am busy printing stuff..hahhaa and she was happy for me......i am really touched..nearly teared but was trying to hold back my tears because i have a class waiting... hahahax... she is so nice!! i really vowed to be like her if i ever have a trainee under me!! really help her and shall not add burden to the trainee...and Mrs Rajoo liek a mother to me... i noe she nags in class but for their own good i guess...later they will see how effective her teaching...and all but i think tat is why i can see myself improving coz she knows what she is doing and ya i will miss her nagging and the way she talk to me like my mother... she is funny at times and ya she can be cute too when she complain to me about her lost ear rings...man will miss them so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know i can't repay them enough because they are the ones that change my life completely..by getting a distinction for my practicum is a huge thing for me....i'm hoping for a cross over...and i think gettin a D will help me...without their support and recommendation i might end up getting part time degree and it is tough and i need to pay for the degree and all... so ya i still keeping my finger cross!!!.. The only thing i can repay them is by giving my ppt to them... hehehehx so they can like share the resources so they no need to create new onez....
I really liek XIshan now.... the teachers are very nice and supportive.... i forgot to mention Mr Rudy... he has helped me alot last year though he is not my CT and he bother to come to my place and ask whether i prepare everything and all :) so touching..just now i was touched by so many ppl... and i feel like huggging everyone of them but of course my whole hand is shiverin and panic mode... hahhahahax....Ms Sophia and Ms Gina also bring smile to all our faces coz they are fun to talk to!!!Mdm Razinah... she talked to me on Monday afternoon and wished me luck... and she ask me to pursue my degree... thanks for the encouragement!!! i will not forget all these encouragement!!

Now back to reality i need to get back to markings!!!! hhahahax.
I would like to thank everyone for everything!!

Told u so fara~!!!

Why next week??? so sad:( have to wait again... haiz.........................................

Wishing hard upon a star to bring a miracle!! A miracle that will always put a smile on my face!!! :)

Time to do something about it! like seriously!!! can;t take it anymore...

Wanted to blog yesterday but was too tired and exhausted.
Miracle happen, no staff contact time.. so guess wat!! able to make it for DARSHA GRADUATION! It was a very big event! I am so proud of her. I think she deserve her 2nd upper class honor. I have seen her studying and worrying and stressing during the preparation of the exam. She was sick for one paper but she still sit for the paper. I am so proud of her!!
However yesterday i was too tired coz i had markings to do and the teachers have to do sports and a lot of things in my mind. BUt it is worth it lah coz the graduation does not occur often rite..
Then had dinner.. guess wat darsha treated! it is very kind of her :) thank god i was not that cranky during dinner... coz if i am too tired and exhausted and when i need sleep but can't sleep i have the tendency to talk nonsense and random stuff...those who talk to me in msn till late will noe... i just wish i had been more cheerful and lively yesterday for her..

then tried so hard to watch ugly betty season 4 finale. It took me 2 hours to stream. But it is worth it.... daniel and betty make a great pair.... the way they like and needed each other is so sweet... daniel finally say that he can't live without her!!!!! and he went to london tooo!!! i hope there will be a next season but i dun think so... coz everything ended perfectly and Wil finally get what she wants without scheming surprisingly....

Today was quite okay. My tuition cancelled so i can make use of the time to plan my lesson. can't wait to go to the zoo tml!!!! will be wishing for good weather and a fun trip!.

expect the unexpected.
SMILE :)

Good start of the week~!
Thanks to u!!!
Forget..Forgot... Forgotten.

However i will not be able to forget this!
To somebody:
I think u have no manners and rude. It is not nice to just ignore that person. If you dun like it than just say excuse me and walk away. She did nothing wrong and i think it is just personal grudges or jealousy or watever lah.. God noes wat also... Very insensitive of you..... If i ever see your stupid face again..i feel like splashing chilli sauce all over your soo-not-nice face!! worst than a gruffalo!!!!! I really want to write wat happen long time ago.. but now i can't stand it already...and to write the whole thing down will cost me my reputation...

Aniwae ya.. all is well.. except my 10 year old water heater burst!!! so have to bathe cold water tml.. furthermore it is now freezing sia... and we nearly got cheated by 250 bucks.. the 2 old man really want to "ketuk" us... they say 580 for a new water heater to be install.. so we say we will source out first and finally found out that the same brand water heater cost 200 plus labour charge total 330... nonsense people u noe... i have learnt to source out first before deciding what to purchase especially when the cost involve hundreds... really must be careful k!!

Oh ya a sad news... have to go back to NIE from 10 May to 23 May... i was so looking forward to it but guess wat?!!! the programme starts at 830 all the way up to 530 for the first week.... so demoralizing!!! i mean i hate traffic jams!!! esp jln bahar there... going back also aargjhh!!!
But if i were to take public transport... i will have to kiss the door of the mrt train...both traffic and human jam... why must they make our life so miserable??!! isn't practicum miserable enuff?????? atleast at Xishan my trip only takes up at most 20 min. and i could go home like at 2? unless got markings or meeting lah

Haix so not looking forward to the induction programme.. and i am loving Xishan Pri man... so gerek the ppl who sits around us...oh and our programme is all at NTU!!! Dunnoe what lecture room lah.... haiz.. I prefer NIE campus cosy and not so fast-paced compare to NTU and lunch time there very the packed!! i dunnoe why i am bullshitting here..... I am glad actually tat i enter NIE instead of SIM... I think i would still be finding job after finishing my studies... haix.. all that matters after completing your studies is finding the job part... no matter if u r from ITE or Poly or UNI... the end point is to survive the working world.... I noe a few ITE/ Poly students earning the same as UNi ppl...they got the job that doesn't match their cert... so ya tat is why i dun really care whether my bf or husband to be has only ITE cert as long as his job is stable and he earn a decent amount...and not lazy... so ya fortunately Hairil is like tat... i am proud of him actually.. i can feel that he is pressured because of me being a teacher.. so he is trying to clog as many over time and he works hard... tat's the good thing....

oh ya and to my surprise those University bus3rdZ actually look down at NIE students??? why? just because we can't get into local uni? wait till u have your cert and go into the working world..(except those intellectual ppl who has secure a job even before they graduate)... Wat's so bad about NIE? i mean it is a place where teachers are trained.. regardless whether diploma..degree.. etc...some of course not fit to be a teacher lah i agree.. but they will discover it themselves when they are there...i mean u have to try to noe it... some may discover the passion when they are in NIE.. some are still finding.. so they need time.. and its hard for them to back out coz of the bonds.... i think if they have no bonds... those who have not so good attitude will of course leave the teaching industry.... Is NIE tat bad?.... it is just quite shocking to me to hear that... Thank god my friends in NTU and NUS is not like u people... they never ever look down at me like how u bus3rdZ did...AND FYI..those insensitve people are locals...not international students...

finally i feel relieved coz i let it out.. :)
To me i think when u say somethin u better think first.. dun just shoot...this is one of the rarest time i feel hrt when hearing that comment... a confession.. i was under depression for quite some time when i didn't do well for my A's.... the first time i feel like a total failure in life.. i can't get to local uni.. and my family can't afford overseas studies...of course pressured by families and all... then ya i realize that i am no good and useless... the only thing i could do is help others not to become as useless as me...wanted to be a social worker but i was afraid i sould not handle that much responsibility yet... so i thought of serving the school first...and help the kids... that is the only way to pay back my failure guilt... i am trying my best to create a difference in their lifes and as far as possible, i dun want them to feel that they are useless.... to me i have disappoint my family by not entering local uni ( what's with all of them man!!) u noe what my mom will sometime still say why my dauighters cannot go nus... wtfh... when she say that, my kakak will talk back and for me, i feel like a failure again.. so ya..this failure feeling will always come back..so far the only sensitive thing for me to handle is my failure to go local uni..i think if my tok was alive..he is the only one who can make me feel otherwise...

wow.. this is the first time i actually talk about this.. hehehex..

BUSY BuSY weekends.

My aunt house is undergoing upgrading thingy. So there is a room extension and new toilets windows and doors.

Weekends had been packed. Sat had 2 tuitions and in between went to AMK to "help out". Today went there again to send my grandma. TV IS MY DISTRACTIONS expecially on weekends. There is BILLA and HAIRSPRAY! spent roughly 5 plus hours in front of TV and ate pizzas. Now rushing to do WLP and DLP!!!



Aniwae been thinking lately...(angan-angan) What if i have the chance to cross over to degree? I have to work part time and need to earn atleast 1k coz of the car... hmmmmph... tuitionz!!! Hopefully have good friends too... if not a loner all over again..



Okay what if i dun have the chance to cross over? i take part time degree... and need to pay for the fees which is so expensive!!! so how to settle down like tat???



SO either way i will be slogging hard earning and studying and no time to enjoy life...no time to find potential husbands...



ANiwae looking forward to next saturday!!! me going zoo with jami and her bro!!!! ZOOOOO!!! yippee!! a nice place to go and relax your mind and enjoy God's creation!!!! i am seriously excited about the trip even though i just went last wed with the kidz but this time i will enjoy myself and no need to take care of 30 over kidz!!! hahahHAHA.... and i can eat ben and jerry!!! i really treasure this small outings with friends because i am not a person who keeps hanging out... i will only go hang out with darsha.. and probably eat lunch or wat with colleagues and NIE friends.. and group outing... i think i am a homely person.....

Ya so come to the zoo ppl!!! It is quite new and they have new shows!!!

going back to WLP and DLP...Asta La vista!

:)

Delighted! At the same time scared and confused.
Need to really work hard! LAST HURDLE!!! i am going to do it!!!

Aniwae brought the P3 kids to the zoo.. have i told u i admire my CTs... especially Ms Devi. SHe is so good!!! i really want to be like her!!! i noe it takes time...but i aim to be as firm and fierce as her. The way she handle the class is WOW!!!!
seriously WOW!!!

And for Mrs Rajoo... I like her!!! she is so motherly and kind and she is good man!! i mean initially she gave me some advice.. i thought it was like not so good.. but i carry it out and to my surprise it works... afterall form teacher noe their class best... so from then on i really take her advice seriously... and the sweetest thing is that... she had a bad sorethroat and she came down just for my observation...
Thank God! i am really fortunate to have good and understanding and super kind CT..last practicum tooo.., i have the sporty Mr Ashari and the cool Ms Santhi... I hear horror stories about CTs but thank god my Cts are totally opposite!!...
But then i feel that i am a bit slack now and i feel bad... so now on i will make my LP more detailed and be more fierce and I don;t want to let them down!!! :( i hope i am helping them instead of making their life miserable.....

Aniwae ya love them.. suddenly i feel like coming back to Xishan... good school.. teachers super friendly and kecoh and gerek... and the Cikgu there are so nice!!! they callk me sayang!!! hahhahax.... very rare ppl callk me that... except the NIE stall aunty... hahhah but at XIshan they call us sayang~!!

In future if i were to be in charge of trainees i will be as kind and supportive as my CTs.

just watched Lovewrecked by Amanda Bynes. Super sweet!! i wish i experience that kind of love :)
okay i watching anugerah hitz... can't believe it sia.. all because of one person..TAUFIK BATISAH!!!!
OMG he just won komposer terbaik!!! aarrghhh!!!!
I just realise mayuni omar not there???...

Aniwae ya..will update later and i wish taufik win the popularity category!

wah lau!! that is my reaction after seeing a notification in facebook. WTFH!!
aniwae feel like today is saturday... wasted quite alot of time... but the good thing is that i managed to be at the top in bejeweled! achievement for me... wanted to play badminton today but somehow it doesn't happen...
tml gonna work work work!!! should i go out???... maybe not... coz right now no mood... got work to do and my emotions are disturbed!! wakakaka...watever you say affect my mood k!! sometime happy and sometime sad and sometime angry and etc.... even if you never say anything still affect me... haiz...

Let see... oh ya my observation is okay i guess... normal not so powerful and not so screwed... it's fuzzy! hahahhahahx...coz it is not the extreme end...

Oh ya guess wat i will have to help out the floorball cca... u noe how stress tat is.. coz they have been the champions in dunnoe wat zones and all.. so they have a rep to protect... i think i need to learn floorball.... damn why not they have basketball cca or touch rug sia... atleast i noe the game well and noe some skills... floorball??!!!! i dun even noe the rules of the game... all i noe is whack!!!... nvm.. dun give up fazi!!!... u can get thru this!!!! need to exercise and build on stamina coz the kids in XISHAN is OVER ENERGISED!!! they are hyper 24 hrs!!! imagine those sports kid... i think they can outrun me larh...

enuff talking me going to sleep..
living day by day and sleeping nite by nite...lame!!
motivation = none at the moment... so have to rely on self discipline! wish someone will like give rewards after completion of lesson plans..maybe stickers? chocolates? a day off???.... (FAT HOPE!!...no OBESE HOPE!)