New phone

Got a new phone. 64GB! More convenient to dwnload apps. Thus i can blog whenever and wherever.
Bought an S6 BLUE!
Feelin down now... same issue with my mom... sick and tired.. she wont change.. i am trying to change my perspective but i just cant... back to square 1... hate it...

Guess What?! i am currently reading the MAGIC book. Gonna try out their stuff :)

Day 1 - Count your blessings

1. I am thankful to have a house to live in.

2. I am grateful to have wonderful colleagues around.

3. I am thankful to have my parents still.

4. I am grateful that i am physically well to still be able to go to the gym.

5. I am thankful to have a wonderful bestie.

6. I am grateful that there are always food for me. 

7. I am thankful for having a job in Singapore!

8. I am blessed to have wonderful sisters.

9. I am grateful that my job is near my house.

10. I am thankful for being able to further my studies (UNISIM).

So yep. This is it.

The author mentioned that it will take 27 days for this magic to work! so exciting! I will try to update here so that i will be able to track my progress :)

First time ever I felt this way.
Knowing that you have to back off abit once your buddy found someone..
But it came abit too early..
I guess i wasnt ready for that change..
Nevertheless... i will try my best to adapt to the situation...

Change is the only thing that is permanent.

the night

The weekend was the craziest ever..
Didnt know what i was doing and why i did it...
Too many things happen at one time and i just go wit it...
A mistake? Aint sure about it...i was happy but there is a guilty feelin too..
There were too many emotions involved... didnt know how to handle them...
I should have taken a step back.. i didnt...

Haiz... religion above all i guess...

So gonna rectify watever it is... gonna be more focus and aware.. i am gonna take 2 steps back before making the right decision...

I miss my body lotion.. :(
Misplaced it...

totally forgotten about this avenue to rant all my sorrow, happiness,  frustrations and etc...
I remembered coz i updated my twitter and saw my long lost twin appeared..

Thing have changed... i had it hard... real hard... but i am really thankful to have such beautiful people around... i am 27 and i noe it is late..maybe too late but i guess things happen for a reason..

the mistake i made was to fall for a gay... thought he has changed but things got worst... bitches came into the pictures... no one noes the whole truth... tried to accept him and became his bestest friend but i guess i am not as important to him as his lover... i thought gays understand girls better...but they are just the same.. selfish and prioritise their other half.. he doesn't put himself in my shoes.. and watever i did for him was gone.. just because of his stupid posts in FB which degrade my family..

Its true when ppl say the closest and the most important person in your life will hurt u the most coz they noe where to hit u.... He went further and seek attention from my friends... and guess what i am all alone... doubting ppl and dunno hu to trust... no one is there for me.. but thanks to him.. i now know hu are the true ones... and hu are making use of u for watever reason.. i am so lazy to fight for them coz i rather spend time and put my energy to those who are always by my side and dun bother about the rest... i want to make him and the rest pay for it..but i am seriously letting karma do its job.. which so far is working bit by bit... i am tired... really tired...

It is difficult to move on but i guess time will heal everything...

So wat for me now... i realized my working place is just solely for working... and i love my kiddos... it is no place to forge friendships or any relationships... trust no one... i mean it... but if u r lucky which obviously i am not.. u can get your true love there and even bestfriend...

Right now i will just enjoy.. working on some of my goals.. and i will continue making my true friends happy coz they deserve it... i will do anything for them now coz they sacrifice their time to be with me when i am down and  they open my eyes to see things clearly...

actually Right now, i am suppose to study for my papers.. my last paper will be on Tuesday.. but hav no mood.. my study partner not here too...

okay lah will talk nonsense in my next post..