waiting for my dce mates to go online and discuss stuffz..
while waiting i shall blog to avoid myself from playing bejeweled..

A bit random but i want to say: WTF!! dun confuse others just because u r confuse!!

Okay i let it out.

As i was walking home from tuition.. i notice the moon is so bright.. not a full moon though... then the bright star thing which doesn't blink... and then i spotted..one..two.. three four five and.. so on STARS!!! so bveautiful.. i feel like lying at the empty field opp my place and lie down and just see the stars... i can stare at it for hours.. it put a smile on my face to see so many stars.. then i smiled at this lady.. quite young... probably mid 30s.. she was walking pass me and wondering whether i crazy to walk and look at the sky... so then i smile at her.. she smile back!!! yeah!!!

smile is contagious unless that person really the mood cannot make it..

okay so tml me will be doing my assignments at wdland lib... away from my bed..tv.. mom!! sis!! and fridge!!! coz tml my lessons all cancelled! yahoo!!
so ya..have to make full use of it.. :)

back to work!! :)

Love myself! hahahahhx.. if u dun love yourself.. how can u love others rite??

My grandparents

Guess wat!! unproductive day! bejeweled damn addictive. didn't do anything!!!!!!!
But had fun catching up with friends on msn.. its quite rare i talk to like quite a number of ppl in msn... usually the same main friends...
ANiwae my nenek is sick.. i just found out she has been vomiting today also...i am really scared...
she is 90 already and i'm afraid to lose her... losing my grandpa is not easy for me..... i regret not calling the ambulance for him and i can see how painful for him to walk even a single step to take taxi.. his eyes are full of pain taking the stairs down.. he is struggling every minute in the icu... he wants to drink coke on his last days but the stupid nurse won''t let him!!! he is so kind to ask me to go to prom when he is sufferin... but i made the right choice by staying with him... the time i spent with him while waiting for his turn to check up is the most memorable moment for me..
till now i feel like he is with me... though my skool is near to his kubur i was not allowed to visit him alone...i guess she is afraid.. but i will always wait for the timewhen my mom ajak ...i love him the most in the family but he left me...Now my nenek is sick... i'm afraid to lose her too... sometime i wish i will be the one who will go first coz i really can't bear to lose my loved ones...
tml i will ask my mom to bring her to Dr Jasmine. I dun care.. she muz be treated fast!
I will pray for you nenek! Please be well!! i noe its tough coz your body system is not the same anymore due to aging but i still want u to back like normal when tok was around...

tat is why i think in relationship a break up is nothing compared to losing your loved ones due to death... for a break up u noe she or he is there still but when someone dies... its a different thing..
u got to treasure your loved ones...

slacking sunday

today supposedly i am to finish up my dce 202 assignment 2 but guess it is not possible.

Wake up at 10.. then do house work.. then have to stay to take care of my lovely nenek... so lib is out... thought of going lib then meet my bestie but guess the plan all POOOOF!
now have to follow my mom to fetch my adik from her friends burfday party. haiz...

wat a sunday!! hopefully it will be a good day later.. and vasantham is showing quite old tamil movie.. no mood to watch coz i didn't watch it from the beginning and i'm lost coz i watched the repeat of glee! i missed the wed slot coz of tuition stuffz.

now striving hard to get number 1 position in bejeweled!!! always number 2! and second is the first loser! i hate it!

rewarding day

Morning went to wdland lib to discipline myself to finish up the script. And ya i did it!! but need to check and final touch up! yippiez! was with my sis and her friend fifie! quite comfortable with them coz i like her friend fifie and dalreena!!

then went out...to catch a movie TOOTH FAIRY! then ate at brinda! felt quite relaxed after a stressing morning!!

u noe what.. i wish u can emerge suddenly from dunnoe where and sit beside me in the lib.. in the cinema and etc...

oh ya missed zul by 30 mins... he came but too bad i left..wahhahahx.

back to business

I felt like writing all over again!! Had vowed not to write!!
This year seems to have a good start despite the terrible and messed up life i had at the end of last month.

Updates: My last sem in NIE. practicum at Xishan Primary. Appreciating life better. Learning to save money. Trying to look for mr right still.

I will miss my NIE friends so much after we graduate. Confirm we won't be seeing each other again since all of us are becoming teachers and teachers dun have time to hang out after school and chill with their friends. Furthermore, most of my friends are at the east but thankfully there are some in woodlands.. yishun.. hougangs...

Have been watching movies that actually highlight the point that it is better to live with someone who loves you then someone whom you loves. I guess i found that someone?? but why do i have the feeling that he is not the right one for me!! why!!

just now Dr png was talking about how guys and women communicate. i mean women are more long winded and will most likely to suplly details but not for man.. but why it is not in my case? why am i not like any other girls? why must i have guys characteristics in me??!!! why can't i be someone who can differentiate louise vutton and bonia??? why can't i be the girlfriend who like to whine and complain??? why can't i be the one who cry over some quarrels instead of my bf? why can't i be the one who loves to talk on the phone with my bf?? why!!!! maybe i was born like that.. how can i change myself sia.. i am old now!!

till now he stil dun understand me and we keep fighting until i doubt he is not the right one for me...but he is not letting go..difficult position...

aniwae.. i was surprised to come across this person blog...his thinking and his way of writing seems very familiar.. then i read his entries..somehow i can visualise and some events i actually experienced it before.. interesting!! but i felt pity for him.. to me i think he needs to be with his friends.. i can't see someone struggling.. he studies in school late and i think he have commitments in rugby thingy.. i felt like his friends should be around him to study together or to cheer him up...but he is a good boy i guess... so ya i believe that if he has a clean heart and work hard, he will suceed in life.. i really want to noe what happen in the end to this good guy.. hopefully it will work out for him..

i still love bollywood!!